really should stop my stalker-ish behavior, even i find myself scary. but i just can't seem to take my eyes of her. she shouldn't be the prize, because there's alot greater in store, but she is the one distraction i just keep falling for. come on, i need to stop this and focus for real.

the evening is perfect. the sky and weather, immaculate. if only this was a sign for things to come. how am i ever going to find anything worthy enough to bridge this gap? is there anything i can do to cross this great divide? maybe for a start, i could get my act together and start setting it right. but even if i did that, i still wouldn't be good enough. it's a fact i'll just have to wrap my head around, eventually.

ok, it's really time to go all out. i keep saying that in desperate hopes that it'll miraculously come true. cannot afford to get left behind, again. everyone else is picking up the slack, and i'm struggling to keep up. this four day weekend is the make-or-break period. it's going to ignite the spark, or put it out. i need to make this work, one way or another. i can't seem to stress the importance of it enough, especially to myself.

stop getting distracted, even for awhile. you know you can't have her so don't even stop to think about it.

this evening is perfect. let it remind you of what you will never be, yet at the same time let it coax you into believing that something out there is worth it all.

i'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have, and cannonball into the water.