so this week marks the end of the DMPs... really didnt think i would say this but i felt the DMPs were really fun and i didnt want it to end... i was so not looking 4ward to normal lessons when it resumed yesterday... it juz felt so weird going back to ur old class when the past 3 weeks have been spent without morning assemblies, waking up at 8+, spending 1 and a half hour with zf and darryl in a lesson, then going to mug/gym/play random things... the whole DMP period was like a weird dream... its like we're actually studying fun stuff and we get to spend time with our friends doing wat we wanna do... its like all the times we studied in classrooms after lessons, going gym and singing and dancing and going crazy, and the chinese chess and soccer... man, am i going to miss those times or wat... which makes me not wanna go back to my old class even more... and so with that, the countdown to EOYs begin... not that it hasnt already begun a long time ago, its juz that now every minute is so much more significant, so much more precious and so much more crucial in determining wat kinda grade ur gonna get 4 ur efforts...

so its 6 days to the start of EOYs, and everything we've done over the past 3 weeks is going to amount to this... so far i'm quite abit in to my maths, started on physics and chem and left bio, geog, ss and eng to rot... in between all of this, i still have my chinese O's at the back of my mind... its juz so scary, on one hand we're all studying 4 this so called "big" EOYs, but on the other we still have this one that will ultimately mean everything in our academic career... i juz cant seem to shake off this feeling, with my C5 for prelims not really helping... i'm juz telling myself to do my best for this EOYs and then focus on chinese, which by then i'd have exactly a month... but between every topic i juz cant help but worry about my chinese... and then i look at some people with chinese being the last thing on their minds, and the bulk of them not even planning to study for the O's... hai, why does time have to be such a bitch? i'm slowly starting to feel time slip away through my fingers... and i'm beginning to have that nervy, jumpy feeling inside me already... its like i dun know every topic of every subject that well, but i ask myself whether i'm supposed 2? then i think have i studied enuff? i'm not so much bothered by the grades i'm gonna get, but i'm more bothered by possibility that i'm going to regret because i didnt give my all and that wasnt my best... i guess the only thing left to do is to really make the most of my time left and cover everything, any time left over will be a blessing i suppose...

then of course, amidst all this exams worry, i have to be greeted with the fact that i'm possibily going to move... damn, i was shocked the whole of this morning... i juz couldnt imagine it... for one, i'm not really a person 4 change... its not that i cant adapt if my life depended on it, but its more that i juz like the way things are... i dunno if its going to be a good or bad thing... my mum is telling me that its not confirmed and there's alot of arrangements to be made, but they're definitely looking for another place... everything juz looks so different when you know the amount of time you have left... you nvr appreciate certain things until they about to be taken away from you... i'm really gonna miss this place, and no matter wat they tell me, i still think there's really nothing better, for now... so other than that i've had my tuition cancelled this morning cuz of a really killer headache from yesterday... after i had my chem test (which was really screwed up in alot of ways), had this headache from out of nowhere... so between a trip to a radio station and soccer, the smart me chose soccer in the burning afternoon sun... i scored a goal for my troubles, but i also scored a point 4 dumbness cuz i died last night... could barely drag myself home after soccer... and now its the weekends... i'm fighting against every last bit of my will to chill out... juz gotta see out the next 2 weekends then the battle would be half won... after that its all out war against China (i mean chinese)... b4 i go i wanna thank leech for finally teaching me how to solve the rubik's cube... there's alot of people who can solve the cube, but so far only leech has been able to teach me how to solve it... it means one of two things: leech is a damn good teacher or i'm juz thick in the head... still it has to be the former... anyway, leech if ur reading this i totally appreciate ur patience and after EOYs we're gonna get that frisbee! ok last thing b4 i go, All My Life by KCI & Jojo is totally a nice song, juz cant get enuff of the music (sorrie kenneth, lol)... and All Out Of Love by Air Supply is another great oldie, rocking to it in the gym is the ultimate... til after EOYs, if we still have our sanity in tact, peace...

as promised, here are some (many) of the shots we took during sunday's bbq: