so i didnt manage 2 watch no mercy yesterday, n i totally freaked myself out watching the world's scariest ghost caught on tape... damn, i shouldnt have watched that one... totally freaky... anyway, 2day went 2 watch transporter 2 wit ivan, darryl n kenneth... well, seriously, didnt enjoy it as much as i would like 2... the show was ok, not fantastic, but ok... so after the show, wandered aimlessly 4 like a good 30 mins, went 2 get lunch... brought lunch back 2 skul 2 eat, then waited 4 like almost 2 friggin hours 4 training? 2 friggin hours? damn i should be at j8 checkin out chicks man... wasted my time, n practically slept until training... then came training, wasnt as bad as i thought it would be... turned out quite ok... even pt wasnt bad... until coach asked me go join wat BBAXN thing... i was like, huh??? practically forced in2 lah, but how 2 say no 2 coach??? hai, so muz go lor... now my friggin life is taken up by bball man... training 3 times a week, plus outside bball stuff(including this thing n combined skuls if i get selected, n if coach drags us out 2 play bball wit him), plus i wanna find time go gym... like that how? where has my life gone 2?(if i had a life in the 1st place) 2 think life would be better after cts... well my life is bball, i gotta face it... i dunno how long i can stick wit this but i'll try... then no1 can blame me 4 not trying... well, i've been asked this question, "what's ur purpose 4 playing bball?" i think its a really relevant question 4 me? i juz gotta find the answer 2 that, then i'll solve my grumpy-ness... i hope... so 2morrow's a holiday, shall not dampen anyone's holiday mood... a change of topics sounds good... so i've been surfing around lately, then decided 2 find pics of alyson michalka(dun worry, they're clean)... i dunno why, i juz did it... n wow, i got some really nice pics of her... she looks really hot in the photos... they are seriously clean, juz that she looks so beautiful in the pics... n she has alot of fan sites... n i mean ALOT... wow, she's juz smokin hot... juz check out my msn dp(lazy 2 put it up here)... so 2morrow is a holiday, slack my brains out, then wed is training again... thurs is a hols n friday, guess wat, training!!! ok, enuff about training... shouldnt complain... i have nothing else 2 say lah, cept i bit my tongue this morning, n it hurts like hell... still does... watching married 2 the kellys later, missed the earlier 1... check in some other time... peace...

well, there goes another sunday... woke up rather early 2day, cuz got some friendly game at marine parade... MARINE PARADE!!! thats as good as the other side of the world 2 me... but i got my parents 2 fetch me there... lol... went 4 the game, wasnt really as tiring as i thought it would be... after the game had like a 40 min bus ride+20 mins train ride home... wanted 2 go swim, but as usual i procrastinated n didnt swim... like wat fu ginn said, " if only the water would come 2 me instead of me going 2 the water..." i have no discipline watsoever... i gotta start keeping 2 my word... anyway, 2morrow is the start of another week, oso the start of the last week of skul... man, so many things are gonna be happening, as well as going through my mind... 2morrow gonna catch a movie wit some friends b4 training(training again?!?!)... juz wanna slack around... ok, so 2day was supposed 2 sit in front of the couch n watch the 6 hour marathon of the simpsons halloween special... in the end missed out on like 4 hours of it cuz of the friendly at marine parade... 2night got some ghost special thing, i wont miss that 1... but i'll probably freak myself out in the process, like i always do... n got no mercy 2night, according 2 darryl... probably watch that 2, but abit the late... well, last night on premiership saturday, man u got owned??? they lost 4-1 2 boro... wtf!!! cant believe they got owned... when i turned on the tv at like 1 something, man u was like down 3-0... couldnt be bothered 2 watch the rest of the game... wat happened dudes? they are so screwed lah... no way are they gonna win the EPL... not even close... arsenal drew wit tottenham, 1-1... chelsea won again as usual, 4-2... wigan won oso, 2-0... wah wigan seriously on some kinda owning spree... 7 straight wins? they are kicking some serious ass out there... well, its soccer... anything could happen... damn i m so bored i dunno wat 2 blog, i'm writing about my tv schedule n about EPL scores? wat does it matter 2 any 1 out there... lol... but nothing matters anymore, does it?

well, 2day's highlight was interclass... we played our way in2 the finals n lost 1-0 2 2J... man, was quite disappointed... but hey, no regrets... the only part i didnt feel good about was when we started 2 quarrel among ourselves... i dun want any friendships 2 be broken up cuz of this... well, we lost lah... nothing we can do about it... juz move on... great team, i'm definately honoured 2 play along side these guys... wouldnt change a thing... anyway, during our game wit 2H(quarter-final), ms cho came down!!! i nearly flipped out... well she came down 2 support 2H lah, not us... but at least got some "good stuff"... wah, she come down, then i spilt my pants during the game? wth... like the 2nd pair of pants i screwed this year... better get new ones... wonder if she saw? lol... hiya but i think she didnt notice me, dun even think she knows i exist, so nvm... lucky ms tsang nvr come otherwise ivan would flip out... ok moving on... after interclass, went 2 combined skuls trials... final 1... totally screwed up... kept missing easy lay-ups... then they say they will call us 2 tell us who got in2 the team... wth? damn lah, muz wait somemore... later in the end nvr get in... damn scared now... screwed up big time, little confidence i can get in... hai, its the end lah... well, the skul year is ending, n everyone is feeling it... been reading people's blogs n they all have pretty much the same messages... maybe i'll save a post 4 reflection of my 2 years wit 2C some other time when my thoughts are clearer... but i'll juz say this, the skul year is ending, along wit that 2C is ending... no matter how hard i 2 try 2 think that 2C will still be 2C, the fact is that 2C will become juz another page in the book... all the good n bad times... i think it has really changed my life, being in a class like this... i dun think i can ever be in a class wit dynamics like this one... everyone is juz like a piece of a puzzle, n without 1, the picture is not complete... next year, 2C will be known as "2C '05"... the memories of '05, of 2C, of all the teachers that have come n gone n played a part in our lives... as the skul year ends, as a new one begins... the story is written, a page is turned in our lives, a chapter 2 remember... when we look back 10 years from now, what will we say about 2C? will it ever be the same? will the friendships forged in these 2 years hold up? only time will tell... but right now, all we can do, is 2 reminisce about the days when we were 2gether, juz laughing or playing around... the day when we 1st stepped in2 the classroom... the day when we knew nothing of the other person but soon became best of friends... the day when we step in2 the classroom 4 the last time, knowing that we may nvr be in the same classroom as some of the people we have grown 2 know in the past 2 years... the day when we leave the classrom 4 that very last time, when a little piece of our lives are left behind, waiting 2 be found... that day when we step out of that classroom 4 the very last time, n probably nvr be able 2 find a class quite like this... that day, i wish, would nvr come...
Class 2C of Year 2005...

so we got back our cts results 2day... was rather ok lah... quite pleased wit a couple of subjs, others not so much... well, chinese n eng was a surprise... ct both got A... sci was also rather surprising 4 me, i tot i screwed it, but got A oso... maths n hist got B+... maths expected but hist was disappointng... havent get geog back yet... 4 whole year, eng maintain... chinese was really surprise 4 me... 69, but abit wasted oso... could have gotten 70? but i'm not complaining lah... the 1 i really wanna complain is sci... damn lah, miss 4.0 by 1 mark, 79... crap lah... another damn close 1 is maths, got 70, damn heng... hist 74, happy 2 keep a 3.6 lah... i've really worried 2 much, in the end all still ok... after that went skill test... a friggin waste of my time... then went combined skuls... rained like hell so no training... wah, now suddenly i really wanna get in2 combined skuls... b4 that not really excited about combined skuls... but now, after meeting the people there, i really wanna get in2 team... bringing back the bball enthu-ness? hopefully, otherwise bdiv training will die... so combined skul trials on thurs, final cut... kinda nervous, i think 2day i screwed up big time... my passes kept flying everywhere but the person i'm passin 2... keep turning over... zf n danny confirm in liao... i really wanna join them lah... hai, shall not think so much... juz believe in myself, shall not get my hopes up 2 high oso... so after that went 2 eat... then went home wit danny az n charles... wah then on the train, saw this cho bu... boarded at orchard left at yishun(i take note of these details)... wah, she damn cho... but i couldnt see her face? juz caught glimpses... man... hai, thats why i love orchard n mrt... got home like 1030, damn tired(how many times have i said this in my blog ar?)... i'm falling asleep infront of my com... oh, i remembered, watched friends juz now... joey finally kissed rachel!!! yeah man... n this time its real, not juz rachel's fantasy... finally, been waiting 4 this... lol... rachel(jennifer aniston) is damn hot... n joey(matt leblanc) kissed her!!! i dunno why i so happy, maybe high from results? but they kissed... i wanna see wat happens on the next episode... friends rox... i'm damn sleepy now... i think i'll go sleep lah... peace...

hai, sorrie about the earlier post... maybe i'm juz feeling emotional again... i'm always so emotional in my blog lah... i hope i'm not freakin anyone out... yeah so, beginnin of the week... sux as usual... so, basically a waste of my time in skul 2day... elections? anyway, wasted a good part of my time in skul, after which went 2 charles house 2 slack... ate quite alot there... oh n helped az make blog... quite cool, at least he wont tease anyone about having a blog liao... n i can finally mention his name in my blog, i dunno why, i think after he got a blog the "contract" is off... nvm, in-house joke, others wont know... wah then i realised that suddenly alot of people gettin blogs, or remaking their old ones... even i changed my boring skin... i guess everyone has so much time now the cts are over... nice 2 check out other people's blogs oso lah... so after that came back 4 training... wont say anything about wat we dicussed about training, 4 fear of gettin screwed... lol... so training ended abruptly when it poured like nuts... went 2 watch video after that... was very sleepy, could hardly stay awake... then came out of the LT, got the shock of my life... the whole place was so dark, as in night kinda dark... man, i tot "how long were we in there man?"... then realised it was only 7??? i tot it was like 8 or 9 or something... man, the sun set really early dude... way freaky... n it rose damn early oso lah, like 630 the sun was already up? man, i think there are "bigger plans" up there dude... i think someone is hell-bent on destroying the earth... doomsday? read a newspaper article about doomsday n armageddon, wit all the natural disasters happening within the last year... like the movie The Day After Tomorrow(great movie)... so are we gonna die? i dunno, but there are some thing i hafta 2 1st... lol... juz messin witcha on the dying part, but i really got stuff i nidda do 1st... lol... so got home, dead beat, as usual... married 2 the kellys, hooked onto that show liao... n the return of the king of queens!!! yeah man, i love that show... the fat guy damn funny... his wife is damn hot oso... they simply cant have a comedy without a hot chick... man, damn she's hot... gotta find out her name... hai, really sleepy right now... 2morrow got skills test, combined skul, n the release of the results... the last thing is the least i'm looking 4ward 2... of all days it had 2 be on combined skuls day... later cant perform(if ya know wat i mean, lol)... so that's that 4 2day lah... basically... i dunno if i can stay up 2 watch friends of not... really tired now... maybe i should juz sleep... regarding the earlier post, guess got inspired by all those heartbreak kinda thing ya know... so, sorrie if i bore anyone 2 death... bet like 20 thousand people hate me(if that many people know me, lol)... stop crapping? sounds like a good idea... peace...

i know u dun feel the same way about me as i do about u... thats why i can nvr tell u how i truly feel... everyone juz keeps telling me how perfect u are... i juz stay calm n cool, pretending i dun care... but deep down, i juz wanna tell someone how i feel... it hurts so much, 2 keep it all inside... i know it could nvr work out... 2 much stands between us... n i dun wan 2 lose this friendship... i wake up every morning thinking about it, how it would be like if we were 2gether, if i could wake up n be able 2 tell u how much i cared... n 2 know that u cared 4 me 2... knowing that it could nvr happen... i know it sounds so cliche, but thats the only way i know how 2 put it... it's not as simple as it seems... sometimes i wonder when u read my blog, do u even know wat i'm writing about? do u even know who i m thinking of when i write my post? do u even know who all these refer 2? if u were 2 ask me, all i can say is that "this person" is someone else... with that lie, it hurts so much... i cant ever let u know how i feel about u... but do u read the signs? or u juz choose 2 ignore them? all i can do, is 2 stand from afar n admire ur beauty, cuz thats the only way i can feel close 2 u... every morning, when i see u, i think 2 myself "she is so beautiful"... not being able 2 walk up 2 u n tell u that... hurts me so much inside... but 2 be able 2 juz stand there, watching u... it's all worth it... maybe its more than juz time that stands between us, maybe ur heart lies somewhere else... maybe i will nvr be good enuff 4 u... i'm afraid, that if i put myself out there, i will get shot n run down... the fear of rejection... my hopes are 2 high, i keep telling myself that u are thinking about me 2... when in reality u're probably more busy wit work or juz thinking about that someone u cant 4get... maybe i'm juz feeding my own feelings, maybe i'm juz living in my own fantasy, or maybe i juz really wanna be with u... everytime i write, i wish u read it n know that its u i'm writing about, n that its u i care 4... but only 2 realise u probably dun even read wat i write... everytime i show concern, u will see it as a friend, n nothing more... i guess it's all juz my fault... or maybe it juz wasnt meant 2 be... my head tells me that it cannot happen while my heart tells me 2 keep trying... why? why do i have 2 hurt so bad juz 2 be wit u? if i tell u how i feel, will i crash n burn? n not be able 2 pick up the pieces? will u understand how i feel? so wat if u do understand? can anything happen? the answer is no... then why do i keep trying? when i look in2 ur eyes, i know u are missing something... n i know that it is not me... ur heart longs 4 the one u tried 2 give up, but couldnt... my heart longs 4 u... so can i tell u how i feel? can u accept the fact that i really wanna be wit u? maybe someday i will tell... n maybe someday u will understand n feel the same way about me... maybe...

well, as u can see, i changed my blogskin... finally moved away from the black n gloomy 1... but the message on this 1 izznt that cheery either... so watever lah... didnt watch the man u game... got 2 caught up wit the com... so i missed it... n man u drew!!! wth... the title race is officially over... i cant see anyone catching chelsea at the top of the league... somemore 2day chelsea playing everton, rock bottom of the table wit only 1 win from 8 games? those are odds that are staring u in the face... so looks like chelsea is gonna be way clear at the top of the table... the fool of saturday's games was robert pires... didnt watch the game between arsenal n man city, but heard from my father n the newspapers that pires screwed a penalty... wtf??? i didnt know the penalty could be taken that way... go read the papers, lazy 2 type out the blooper by pires... anyway, wigan owned again... won 2-0... they will become EPL champions!!!(lol, u nvr know... u nvr know) i m contradicting myself wit my earlier statement... but hey, wouldnt it be nice 2 have wigan win the EPL... imagine, they juz promoted from division 1, win the english premier league, n a place in next year's champions league... fairytale man... back to reality... siao, dunno wigan how many games unbeaten or something liao... man, they rox lah... lol... so, wasted my day(or should i say slacked my day)... played some pc games... dying 4 fifa again... read abit of the book... then i fell asleep... hai, 2morrow got skul again... then got training... the beginning of a hell week... i think i'm falling sick or something... die man, dun wanna jeopardize my chances at combined skuls... damn, i'd better rest or something... 2morrow's the start of a new week... hope it ends as soon as it is about 2 arrive...

well, the highlight of yesterday was the interclass soccer... our class progressed through the group stages... lol, we won our 1st game 4-0... man, we kicked some serious butt... had fun overall... was dead beat after training and all, got home n died on my bed... missed survivor... ok, so woke up at 7 this morning 4 the combined skul selection... so got 2 the place, kinda awkward 4 me, cuz cept 4 my teammates, i dunno any1 else... so went on wit the thing, the other players are quite nice lah... outside the competition, i guess they are juz like any other kid... so the thing went on ok... got through 2 the 2nd round of selection this tues... final round would be on thurs... man, training once a week at that place... damn far... but will go through wit it n see how it goes... i wonder if i really wanna commit 2 this... will be on throughout next year... hai, shouldnt think so much now... juz play it out... this week will be damn packed... mon, wed, fri training, tues n thurs combined skul selection... n if i get through in2 the team, its a sat training... so basically my life... wats more, ct results comin out this week... havent really finished enjoying myself... or maybe i'm juz thinking 2 much... so, after the trials, went 2 eat then went home... once again, knocked out on my bed... woke up n watched batman begins... as the title suggests, its was how batman became batman(duh)... so the story unfolds... blah blah blah... quite boring lah... nothing much... katie holmes was cho though(wats a movie witout the chick?)... other than that, it wasnt really worth watching if u ask me... i guess i juz dun like these kinda shows... well, catching the man u tottenham game... a good 1 i hope... oh, i finally got something good 2 read... agatha christie's death in the clouds... nvr really read any of agatha christie's books... reading this 1 wit great anticipation... well, my days are numbered... once the results come out, my life is over... so imma gonna enjoy it while i still can... i'm gonna catch the man u game...

i feel that i'm losing u, please dun let anything come in between us and our friendship... i dun wanna lose a friend like u... i dunno if ur reading this, or if u know who this refers 2... but if u do read this, u would know... plz talk 2 me... i wanna know wat is happening... i dun wanna lose this friendship, neither do i wanna lose u...

so 2day is another day... i've kept 2 my word... slacked the whole day... but wat else can u do after cts? mug 4 A levels izzit? anyway, woke up at like 10+ 2day, finally can sleep until shuang... so woke up, blurred as ever... didnt do much until i went over 2 my grandmother's place 2 play ps... lol, played fifa, beat the crap out of the other teams... very satistfying... especially when u dun have 2 deal wit the ever so "owning" chelsea... 2 bad i couldnt play them in the league cup... apparently they got whipped by some other small club... that has no relevance 2 anyone out there, but juz 4 the fun of it... so played fifa until i went home 4 dinner... then slacked again until i watched From Justin To Kelly on star movies... man, that was one happening beach party... anyway that show was basically alot of singing... i really wanted 2 see more acting, but wat do u expect from the winner n the runner up of the 1st american idol competition... so its basically boy meets girl, boy falls in love wit girl, n some wat happily ever after... i'll leave u 2 fill in the spaces... i really expected more from the show, wanted 2 watch it cuz kelly clarkson was kinda hot oso... but a letdown in both cases... the show was like a friggin musical wit the sun, sand, sea and alot of skin(if ya know wat i mean)... n kelly clarkson didnt really look that great in the show... hai, another time killer... switched the channel half way... watched smackdown a little... prefer RAW though... storyline is much nicer at RAW... so now i'm here, basically doing nothing, feeling a little bit sleepy, n juz tryna get my life back in2 perspective... so, the much awaited interclass is here... n i, sadly enuff, will not be a part of it... cuz apparently coach didnt want us 2 play soccer n compromise our chances at combined skul trials in any way... how timely... i really wanted 2 play in the interclass lah... the only thing that i felt our class could achieve 2gether lah... its like the so called last class event? call me selfish or watever... but i was really lookin 4ward 2 interclass... guess i'll juz miss out... i suppose life is like that... dun wanna talk about life... sian... here i m complaining... wth man, i dun think the fact that i cant play 2morrow has really registered in my mind yet... my skull is probably 2 thick... i think i'm losing it... thats about enuff crap from me 2day... i think i'd better go sleep now... i hope it rains 2morrow, or somehow the astroturf gets blown up or something... yes, imma selfish jerk, sue me... n good night...

yeah man, cts are over... lemme hear ya SCREAM!!! ok, on 2nd thought, maybe not... so my sci yesterday was screwed, didnt know wth DNA was about... plus some more i woke up at 5 juz 2 go skul earlier 2 mug my textbook(apparently i didnt bring it home, damn smart)... in the end still got screwed... 2day, worse still... damn maths... i couldnt finish the paper(again)... then plus somemore i dunno how 2 do like friggin lot of questions... so much 4 my 85% ct... more like scraping a 50%... i'll count myself lucky 2 get a friggin 50%... damn maths... hai, these things juz bring ur post ct mood down man... after maths paper went 2 play pool... didnt really enjoy it as much i would have... guess my expectations were 2 high... so played like 4hrs... siao man... then took a cab back 2 skul 4 training... wow, training... surprised? not really... coach wouldnt let us off that easily... so our 1st training in like 2 weeks n we start off by running 1.6(sounds weak but its tiring, since we nvr train like dunno how long)... surprised i could still keep up, juz that i died after that... felt really weak(more weak that i would usually be)... lucky it rained otherwise i wouldnt have made it through the training... surprised 2 see ms tsang at the training though... malaysia trip sounds fun, but i dunno why deep down i feel that it izznt gonna be as nice as i want it 2 be... training ended surprisingly early(we continued our drills in the canteen even though it was raining outside... surprised again? not at all)... went s11 2 makan, cannot take it... damn hungry... after the maths paper, i kept thinking, that i wouldnt be able 2 enjoy as much as i would have... its like the damn maths paper was a friggin spoiler... now all i can think of is how badly i'll fail n get screwed by parents instead of how i should waste my life... hai, but its over... there's nothing i can do now... so turns out i cant play interclass this fri, our class is so friggin screwed... sat is combined skuls trials... man, so packed... only thing 2 really take my mind off stuff is ps 2morrow... my ps instinct overruled my instinct 2 go out n catch a movie... playing fifa 04(yes i know, its old) while i wait 4 fifa 06... y'all will bow down 2 my west ham supremacy... taking west ham 2 the champions league(no challenge 2 bring man u or arsenal or chelsea 2 the champions league... so much nicer 2 own wit a weaker club... then chelsea can kiss my a**... lol) hai... can somebody tell me wat 2 do? have yet 2 get a book 2 read(no more smart dictionary comments), probably over the weekend... i'm so tired, yet i cant fall asleep... cant let this day(or night) slip away... there's no skul 2morrow anyway(duh, i'm playing ps?)... so this will be the day when the cts ended... this will be the day when maths screwed my life... this will be the day when we await a new beginning(or the end)... i'll probably get it BIG from my parents about the maths paper... but until then... wat can i say? juz slackin...

ok, my wrist is officially broken... finished geog n hist 2day... geog was pretty easy, hist was oso ok but 4 the last question i could have written more, not enuff time... damn, but overall i think still ok lah... i juz want an A+ for geog n an A 4 hist can liao... 4 papers are out of the window, 2 more... my slack mood is coming back again... dun feel like muggin sci, cuz its like a lost cause 4 me man... but i'll juz force myself 2 think that muggin 4 sci will actually help... hai, feeling really sleepy now... alot of things are going through my mind right now(as usual), but (as usual once again), i think i'll save it 4 after ct, when my thoughts are more clear n organised... so, i think i'll go sleep now, later got epl highlights n married 2 the kellys(cant miss this one man, lol)... seriously dun feel like muggin 4 sci... ok lah, short post... i need 2 sleep now...

if i have offended anyone in any way at all with my previous post, i apologise right here right now... but i' m not gonna take it down, cuz i'm juz merely telling how it is...

ok, now on 2 the fun side of life... watched the man u sunderland game yesterday... man, unbelievable game... so sunderland piled on the pressure early, as expected, admirable effort, came close, but not close enuff... so man u picks up their end, rooney the beneficiary of a swift counter attack... great, man u up 1-0... then in 2nd half, van strikes... credit 2 rooney(he juz cant stay out of the headlines) 4 a great pass, van holding off the defender 2 slot home the ball pass the keeper... man u 2-0 up... now here comes the good part(as if it hasnt been good enuff 4 man u) old man fergie brings on giuseppe rossi(remember this name guys) for van... small lad, looks like a kid on tv... only 17, debut 4 man u... then came this sunderland guy(what's his name again?), sweet left foot shot in2 the top left hand corner(top right from keeper's point of view)... a beauty of a shot... man u 2-1 up... ok so b4 the sunderland goal, fergie wanted 2 bring on 2 more youngsters, but obviously they were told 2 sit down after that sunderland goal... anyway, back 2 giuseppe rossi... he latched on2 a rooney pass, cuts inside n brings the man u advantage back up 2 two, wit the help of a slight deflection off the shin of a defender... 3-1... the celebration went nuts... van der sar sprinted from his goal line 2 pile on top of rossi(the whole team did)... amazing young lad, 17, scores on his debut 4 the club... ryan teo was right once again... but i had 2 see him in action 2 believe it... a fairytale start 2 this young lad's career... so fergie now brings on pique n miller... both young talent, awaiting 2 see pique in action... another young star, phil bardsley, started 4 manu... great defender, the next big thing... filled in the gap really well... so another good result 4 manu... cant say the same 4 arsenal... lost miserably 2-1 to west brom... only thing i can say 2 arsenal now, good luck next year... no chance this year lah, face it... chelsea won 5-1 at home against bolton... i tot bolton was going 2 stop them when they went 1-0 up after 4 minutes... but chelsea had other ideas... stupid chelsea... looks like no 1 is going 2 stop them now... wigan won again against newcastle... man, i juz love the newly promoted teams, nvr say die, take it 2 the big guns, show them wat ur made of... wigan, west ham n sunderland(sunderland didnt make it easy 4 manu, so my respect 2 them)... brings alot of flavour in2 the EPL... so that's that 4 soccer... wow, if anyone u guys get a chance, check out this band(or something) called fort minor... woah... they rock man... side project by mike shinoda(sounds familiar? that dude from linkin park)... wah lao, fort minor sounds really good... check out believe me, petrified and remember the name... they seriously sound really good... got hooked on2 them on the day after i 1st heard them(thats pretty fast 4 my standards)... so go check out fort minor... i think believe me is playing on perfect10, but u can hear the other 2 songs on this web http://www.fortminor.com

ok so 2morrow got hist n geog ct... i think i kinda wasted yesterday... as in i did minimal work wit the amount of time i had, so 2day gonna make up 4 it... wanna whack like siao... cant wait 4 wed... i think its time i go mug liao... fort minor rox...

yeah, so 2day finished eng n chinese paper... 2 of the most suckiest papers... now got the whole weekend 2 mug 4 the rest of the papers... even wit my lack of preparation i felt the eng paper was ok? chinese was so-so but felt i could have done better, all those easy words 4get how 2 write, give away marks oso nvr take... so i felt chinese was abit the wasted... so i'll juz slack the rest of the day... so after ct we were walking back 2 mrt, then ivan suddenly says wincy perfume damn nice... then he starts gettin high about wincy... really dun understand... i mean, yeah she's hot n all, great personality, but how far are u gonna take it(not refering 2 u ivan, lol)? i think its probably juz ri peps... cuz ri is like kinda screwed? i mean, there are like so few cho teacher? maybe its juz me or something, but really cant help but notice right? then its like, everyone sucks up 2 the cho teachers, tryna get in their good books... yeah, i cant deny that wincy is hot(once again, maybe its juz me), but seriously, does everyone have 2 put on a show? then i think our class is like the most pro at flirting n sucking up lah... ok lah, i admit i oso got, but come on, the way some people go about doing it, really... its like everyone is tryna get her attention or something... hiya but if shes the ft of ur class, wat do u expect... well the earth doesnt revolve around them(cho teachers) only... ok lah, 2 be fair, its really quite hard not 2 notice ms tsang or ms cho walk by, cuz maybe juz so used 2 looking at them(if ya know wat i mean), but attention seeking? excessive(note i used the word excessive) flirting? nah, i guess i'm pretty much over that... yeah i still look out 4 them(seriously, its REALLY hard 2 NOT notice), but gettin high on every little thing they do or juz tryna be around them every single living moment of my life, probably not... i'm thinking alot of people are "attracted" 2 ms tsang cuz 1stly, she's hot, 2ndly, she has a great personality n lastly, she juz has that "thang"... i mean when u talk 2 her, u can tell she not that oh-ur-talking-to-me-so-i'll-juz-listen-and-get-it-over-wit kind, she really cares(i think? i havent quite mastered the ability 2 read minds yet)... she actually listens 2 u? plus its juz really nice 2 talk 2 her... she juz has that really nice personality(except when she gets nasty, lol)... well, i cannot stress this enuff, its probably juz me once again... i dunno, i cant say anything 4 sure... does what u see on the outside, truly reflect wats on the inside? is anyone that perfect? is there anyone out there who truly cares about ur life, no matter how miserable it may be? i dunno... anyway, ivan was rambling on about ms tsang's perfume n wat dance classes? yeah so ok, either hes really high or there's something more going on... yeah so maybe there's more than meets the eye... a deeper relationship perhaps? i bet alot of people feel this way 2... m i really over it? now i think of it, the answer seems 2 have eluded me... maybe i'm juz being really hypocritical? i dunno lah, why m i thinking so much when i should be slacking? maybe its juz hormones gettin the better of my head... ok so i've juz basically wasted alot of time talking about nothing constructive, but since when did i ever say anything usedful? so the fact remains, i still check out the hot teachers, alot(n i mean ALOT) of people still flirt wit ms tsang, n alot of people out there still hate me... so my life is still messed up... hahahahahahaha... i think i'd better stop talking...

so 2day is the last day b4 ct... man, 2day the class seems so relax lah... like ct over n everything... 2day during maths, had free period cuz eddie nvr come, then played tai ti... then this b***h came in, n confiscated the cards lah... wth... i mean, ok we shouldnt have been playing when we should be muggin, but its a free period, half the class is making noise n screwing around, the others are probably not even muggin, n she has 2 come in, take the cards, n make accusations about us... wth? get a grip lady... its a free period, the bloody class is so damn noise that no one can study in peace lah, might as well relax, some more we're not even making noise lah... confiscate the cards not enuff, muz come in n say we nvr study, treat us like idiots some more... really dun like her attitude lah... come on, its a friggin free period... now gonna get screwed big time... spoilt my whole day lah... really pissed me off... hiya, dun care man, muz fight 4 our case... anyway, 2morrow is the beginning of the end, or watever u might wanna call it... 2 ways 2 look at it... cts are here n cts suck... probably fail everything... another way 2 look at it(the brighter side), might as well get it over n done wit, then can await 2 months of pure slacking... although i m usually a pessimist, but this time i choose 2 see it as a cup thats half full... cant wait 2 get the cts over n done wit... juz hope i get reasonable grades lah, but now i m probably expecting 2 much from myself... we'll see lah... lol, i have alot i feel like saying now, maybe i'll save it 4 another day lah... i think i'll sleep awhile b4 i go mug... my the chinese, still left 成语 and 词语... the 课文分析 is messed up... probably go through the 惯用语 and 谚语 again... eng juz wanna go through everything... the beginning of the end...

no 1 probably reads my blog so i'll juz say wat i wanna say... i have been thinking about stuff lately... i finally realised why i've been so damn slack the past few weeks... i have no goals in my life right now... thats why i've been aimlessly wasting my time... ever since the end of bball season, i've nvr really had any motivation 2 do anything... my grades have dropped, cts are nearing n i've wasted 3 good weeks... there was nothing i really wanted 2 work 4 after bball... i guess this year i focused so much of my time on bball that i nvr really tot about wat imma gon do after the season... then losing in the finals nvr really helped my cause... deep down felt really dissapointed... somewhere inside me juz gave up i think... i was sick n tired of bball... nvr really felt like going training... nothing 2 push me... from then everything went downhill... nvr study 4 tests, pop quiz fail, nvr pay attention in class... a series of events... now i feel my grades are way below my standards... i feel my life is meaningless... then i had a talk wit chris... he told me about some stuff... n i can relate 2 wat he is saying... i realised i needed goals... i dun think i can plan 4 any long term goals as in life long goals right now... but i need some that i can work 2wards... the other part missing in me is motivation... during season, all the training... nvr gave up 4 a moment no matter how tough it was... because i know my teammates are going through the same thing... working hard 4 the championship all seemed worthwhile... worked 2wards a common goal wit my teammates, built really strong relationships, pulled through the tough times... after the tiring games, feeling dead beat, with so much work 2 do, juz feel like giving up on my work... but this one person juz kept pushing me on... encouragements... i drew alot of motivation from this particular "person", both during the season n after... but soon i felt that this could not go on... i drew so much from this person that i know it could be nothing more than an infatuation... i gave up... i moved on... but i realised i couldnt pick up from where i left off... i felt that i still needed this person... the only source that kept me going... n i realised 2day that i still needed that person... how much more can i take from this b4 it dries out... will it be 2 late? anyway, i had nvr had such a strong sense of aim since last year when the 5 sec ones came 2gether... back then we knew we wanted something... right now i know i want something... i juz have so much energy spent on so many things, so many emotions... if only i had used all these emotions n turned them in2 motivation... thats wat i realised 2day... if there's anything i want right now, it is 2 get stronger... right after ct, i gotta find time 2 go gym... have been going gym but 2 inconsistently 2 see results... but during holis n post ct period, i wanna go gym 2 see results... i'll probably go gym wit chris, serves as extra motivation... gotta beat chris... friendly competition... if he keeps going, i'll keep pace... after ct training 4 b div kicks in... i must find a good schedule 4 my gym... i wanna start swimming every sunday as well, juz 2 serve as an alternative... thats basically wat i wanna work 2wards, gettin stronger by the time sec3 comes around... sports is a great way 2 get goals n start working 2wards them... hopefully b div wont seem sian 2 me anymore once training starts, maybe then i will have more will 2 work... plus combined skul would really be a boost 4 me... maybe i will turn that in2 my next goal, if i can get in2 the team... now cts are so near, no point worrying about the past or future, i juz wanna settle my ct, get reasonable marks, n settle wat needs 2 be done... then after ct i can start working 2wards my goals... i have a feeling that all this is juz a spur of the moment kinda thing, sorta impulsive emotions... but i hope that i can turn these emotions n energy in2 doing the things that need 2 be done... as 4 motivation, i really dont wanna turn 2 u anymore, simply because, i've said this 2 many times b4, it wont work out... but why is everyone so attracted 2 u? everyone seems 2 have that special little place in ur heart, everyone but me? yes u've been there 4 me, but were u juz messing around wit my feelings? playing along wit the game? i dunno, i seriously dunno... i dun wanna find out... this feeling, jealousy? only thing i can take from this now is 2 turn my emotions in2 strength... i feel weak, n this serves as a reminder... this post probably does more 4 me than it does 4 anyone else reading this... imma selfish, inconsiderate jerk... deal wit it... u are probably not reading this, i dun even think u know this blog exist... so all my past post about love n crap was juz a waste of time... u wont understand me... not because u cant, but because i dun think u even tried... so jealousy? wont last long... everytime u flirt wit a guy, i let a little piece of wat i was holding on so tightly to go... everytime u walk past n ignore me, i 4get all the good times i foolishly thought we shared... a fool i once was, a fool no more... i will change my life, i'm gonna do something about it... i'll show u wat u did 2 me... i've lost 2 much on u, i wont lose anymore... sorrie if i have wasted ur time, this probably means no one because my blog is as good as a dead rat... i will nvr feel the same way about u again...

b4 i 4get, hey thx dude... really means alot 2 have someone appreciate what u write... i guess finally someone understands n can relate 2 how i feel... best of luck wit u n ur girl...

ok, so i had a haircut 2day... which i really didnt wanna get... wth man, my dad was like forcing me 2 get a haircut... so got 1 lor... think its kinda screwed... hiya but who cares, no girls anyway... so another one of those days where nothing very much constructive was done... had tuition... oh during tuition, couldnt focus at all... kept thinking about that person... lol, was trying 2 keep myself from bursting out in laughter... i mean of all times i could think of that person, it had 2 be during my tuition... felt i wasted my time... nothing went in my head... so after that pretty much slept the afternoon away... then when i woke up, i got the shock of my life... saw an aunt i've not seen since dunno how long ago... n she had a kid(my cousin)... wow, juz keeping meeting these people i have nvr seen in my life or have not seen in a very long time... wth... cant really remember the last time i saw her... but i know it really wasnt a good memory... i think thats why she left... anyway feel so much closer 2 my dad's side of the family(this aunt is from my dad's side)... maybe cuz he has less siblings... dunno lah... anyway spent the evening juz like that... watched 50 first dates... man i really like that show... adam sandler n drew barrymore... imagine, trying 2 make the girl of ur dreams fall in love wit u every single day... wow, 4 me that was... that's true love 4 ya right there... the show's great, plus drew barrymore is hot... but i really like the plot of the show... but i guess many people out there are probably cursing me or something... i guess this sort of thing doesnt happen anymore in this modern society... but izznt it nice 2 juz think about it... if only love was this true... guess no 1 in the real world now appreciates love anymore... but like i said, different people got different views n opinions... so lets hope i can find someone who thinks the same way as me... well, was thinking of this question while i was gettin my haircut, "does looks really matter that much?" maybe i should not get 2 philosophical... i think 2 much, as i was told... so maybe i'll juz think about that question n kill a couple of brain cells, spare u people out there the trouble... time's a wasting, not much b4 ct... gotta keep 2 my word n mug... peace...

so havent been bloggin lately, 2 lazy n tired... so 2day, major sian day... had hist, eng lit, geog, chin, hist and geog again... 2day supposed 2 end at 1245, finished at like 3 lah... wtf... some more its the super sian periods... humans day lah... save 4 chinese, which is as good as nothing... had geog quiz 2day, quite ok but i have a feeling that i gonna screw up... so after that went j8 2 makan yoshinoya wit ivan, darryl, zach, zf n kenneth... its nice spending time witcha friends... away from hw n stress n everything... its times like these that make life seem so much better... so after that went home n slacked... so, yesterday listened 2 perfect 10 while i was muggin 4 geog, dunno wat happened, something inside me juz clicked n i started 2 have that passion 4 the radio again... i used 2 listen 2 perfect 10 everyday lah last time, then after they changed the dj shifts n totally screwed up everything, i gave up on perfect 10... last time jamie yeo used 2 do the say it wit music n carrie chong the late night show... i love both of them lah, especially carrie chong... lol... then now its grace chua n shan wee... nothing against grace chua but she's really not the same as jamie yeo, n shan wee is nothing compared 2 carrie... then cant listen 2 jamie n carrie no more, totally screwed it up lah... then i nvr listen 2 perfect 10 liao... had some problems sleeping without carrie's voice lah... lol... then last night i juz turned on the radio cuz i seriously had nothing 2 do... then something inside me juz came 2 life lah... suddenly like very hooked on the radio... grace chua, still ok lah... anyway i was listening 2 the songs not so much the dj... but shan wee is still abit off 4 me... cant listen 2 a guy while trying 2 fall asleep, 2 weird... well, my addiction 2 perfect 10 is back, hope it stays that way... oh, received a mail from the basktball association of singapore, 4 combined skul... yay... was kinda excited when zf sms me, kinda scared oso... then checked the mail... heng got the letter man... was really relieved when i got the letter... zf n danny oso got... now only waiting 4 az n simon 2 check their mail... i hope they get the letter oso, then can get 2gether... otherwise would be damn weird... so now i kinda like high, guess cuz happy oso... hiya, should relax a little... get in2 the team then talk... wah, these few days, dunno why, been wanting 2 get a really good book... havent had a good book 2 read in a long time... i know ct is coming, but i cant resist the urge 2 get a book 2 read... maybe should get agatha christie, thx 2 recommendation... dunno lah, but really itching 4 a book right now... 7 more days 2 ct, technically its only 6, cuz 2day is almost done... i think i'd better go mug now... peace...

its childrens day 2day, so happy childrens day 2 all u kiddies out there... i sound like i' m not a kid anymore but i m, so i rightfully enjoyed my day... well, didnt do much 2day actually... had dinner, then went causeway point 2 shop... saw alot of cho bu, wat a childrens day treat that was... saw someone that reminded me of ms cho, n that skirt she wore a couple of days ago(guys from ri should know wat i mean)... anyway, got home n watched the man u fulham game... wat a great game... 5 goals in the 1st half... fulham opened the scoring after 90 secs, then man u equalized through van penalty, with much help from park ji sung... 2nd man u goal credit 2 park once again, with rooney 2 finish it off... 2-2 after c jensen equalized through a free kick that resembled 1 of blackburn the previous week, rio a suspect... on the stroke of half time van brought the lead back, with the help of(no prizes 4 guessing who) park... no goals in the 2nd half but a great game nonetheless, a good result 4 man u... lol, b4 the game i already had a feeling that van der sar wasnt going 2 be able 2 keep a clean sheet, returning 2 his former club 2 play... without a doubt, after 90 sec, colin john put fulham up, no thx 2 rio... dunno wth was wrong with him 2day, screwed up, leading 2 both goals... poor defending, playing way below standard... park ji sung was great 2day... unbelieveable, removed all doubts about him... 4 me i didnt really think he would be able 2 make it in the epl, but he proved me wrong, instrumental in all 3 goals... 1st the stunning run that led 2 the penalty, 2nd the perfect pass 2 rooney, 3rd a good run n the pass 2 van nistelrooy... a tale of 2 players 2day, rio's dismal performance n park's brilliant 1... well, 3 points 4 man u, all that matters... liverpool chelsea clash 2morrow... a match worth watching... anway, after that watched the fabulous life of britney... man would u believe how much that chick's got... i know she's rich, but nvr knew the life she had man... she has this private jet that fetches her coffee from coffee bean, n this exclusive jet is made available 2 heads of states n the big names lah, each flight costs 5000... 5000 4 a cup of coffee, now thats wat i call a life... she has these 2 trained german shepherd, each trained 3 years b4 being handed 2 britney, able 2 understand 50+ commands in 2 languages... each dog, 30000... wth... dun get me started on her shopping sprees... she can spend 20000 in 20 mins in some bag store(4got the name)... she has enuff cars 2 open a warehouse... she has a house of 8 acres, worth 4.5 million dollars... when she's on the trot, she stays at a resort that cost 7500 a night, with all the best one can ask 4... all that n more... her net worth(age 21), 50 million n growing... shoot me with a gun... wah lao, juz cant believe these celebs lah... so bloody rich... wth man... seriously cant believe it... that is seriously messed up... hai, can stop dreaming already... but imagine wat u can do wit all that money... woah, thats alot of stuff... i'll end off wit that tot... alot of money 4 all ur hearts desires...

Backstreet Boys
Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body, and soul
How can it be
You're asking me
To feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart