it's been a long journey, but i'm glad we took it. every step, every drop of sweat, every heartache. life just would have never been the same without it. 6 years it has been. 6 years from beginning to end. there are just some things you can never learn from books or in classrooms. they are the sweetest victories and most painful losses. although i must admit it seems like we were never meant to win. so much potential, so much hope, so much anticipation. it amounts to nothing in the end. that's what they say on paper. but this whole time, we were playing for so much more. we will never remember how many points we scored, the games we lost or even the games we won. we probably might not even remember if we won or lost. but all of that just seems so insignificant. unimportant details that just serve to decorate our crowded memories. so small when you look at how far we've come.

what will forever stay are the times spent with the people that changed so much of your fundamental years. the people you grew up with. the people you hate to hate, and the people you love to love. these 6 years never really gave you the opportunity to appreciate these people. not until it's all gone. over. still, the feelings have yet to set in. still in shock mode. but i can safely say, i'd give everything for these 6 years. just to have one more chance at it. when we're old and dusted, memories fading fast, when nothing else matters, all we have to hold on to is just one thing. one story of a group of dreamers, who came together and formed a team. forged through countless triumphs and tribulations into an army of fighters. the history books will never account for their victories, because history is written by the winners. winners, they were not. but what the world failed to see was that these people didn't need gold to vindicate them. they were the gold themselves. all they really needed was to shine brighter than anyone ever thought they could. and shine they did, through the gold in their hearts. the light that paved the way for greater things. we will never be remembered, but we will remember.

for one last time.

dream. team. fight. win.

raffles.

don't speak, i know just what you're saying,
so please stop explaining,
don't tell me cause it hurts.

don't speak, i know what you're thinking,
i don't need your reasons,
don't tell me cause it hurts.

goodbye love, you brought so much joy into my life. you made me a better person just by showering me with your love. you taught me things no one else could. you gave me hope and i rest mine on your wings. you changed my life, for without you i would not be standing here today. but everything must come to an end. just know that goodbye doesn't mean forever. i'll miss the times i had you in my hands. the way we reached for the skies like we knew nothing else. the way we let our dreams soar. the way we were so close to the end of the rainbow, but never touching. that elusive pot of gold will forever keep you close to my heart, because i'll remember all the times i've never had you, for all the times i'll never have you again. for one more day, we will make sweet music. it's time to move on, but for one more day, i'll be yours and you'll be mine.

i love you, because i love this game.

goodbye love.

can't let another day pass by,
without doing what i feel inside.
cause it's embedded in my soul,
the day i stop will be the day i turn cold.
let you know i'm breaking out of that hole, and let go.

so i can be free to do what means most to me,
and you can look back one day and know i shared with you my gift.
i hope you wouldn't think i just leave, pack up and roll up my sleeve,
give it all up and leave with nothing to take with me all i got to give.

so if your life is twisted and ain't going right,
just forget about it tonight.

i'm done. i'm so tired. i'm dead to the world as much as the world is dead to me. i'm empty. i've lost my soul. i feel no pain, no joy, no sadness, no happiness, no misery, no emotion, no love, no warmth, no hope, no life. i've had enough of trying, pretending everything is going to be ok. this life holds nothing more for me. i feel no more life inside me. i'm just a whole lot of emptiness in a whole lot of space. nothing means anything to me anymore. i have nothing. no strength left to fight. i'm gone.

only one week left. everything that is anything will become now. it feels so out of our control, but everything is in our hands. if we deserve it, we will be there. only thing left to do now is to prove it. this is the last. the end of it all. it happens now. the time has come.