been playing the guitar til my fingers are sore. they're numb to the touch but i still feel this tingling sensation in my finger tips. i get it every time i start thinking. i was just wondering if friends could ever be more than just friends. sometimes you just can't help but wonder. there has to be a point in a friendship between two people (opposite sex) where the status becomes blurred. when you start thinking this could be it. this could be the one person you've been waiting for your whole life. but then again you're in a position where you would be risking everything you have between the two of you: your friendship, your trust, your understanding etc. but you can't deny you've thought about it, at least one of you.

that's where the pain starts to kick in. you don't know if you should take the next step. you don't know if what you have is just a really good friendship, or something more. it just complicates matters because one of your best friends is from the opposite gender. could you ever just be really good friends with the opposite gender? nothing more? it's ok if you're both single, but what if your friend is attached? that's just a ball of yarn. and even if you don't make a move, simply the thought screw things up. because it translates to your actions, and the vibes you give out, your body language. friends can pick up things like these. like when silence becomes uncomfortable, or when you're going out of your way just to please a person when you normally wouldn't. you'll just probably end up screwing things up anyway.

you can't kill a romantic. you can't kill his fire, his passion and his imagination. ironically, it's his very fire, passion and imagination that got him killed. i'm just thinking outloud, and blabbering way too much. i might put some of the pictures from aussie, or not. i'm just too lazy. exactly 3 weeks before i fly off to taiwan, which doesn't leave me with very much time for alot of things. i just have to maximise what ever time i have left, before another year races past.

maybe, just maybe, you've thought about the same things as i have. then i just want you to know that between us, there's always a maybe.

when a heart breaks, it don't break even.