and there goes my life. why do i have to get all this shit thrown in my face? i didn't even do anything to deserve this. i think i'm letting all of this get to me. i think i should get past the "who can i trust?" and the "who are my real friends?" argument, because i know now that these people are numbered, so there's really no point asking. what's wrong with people nowadays? doesn't friendship or trust or loyalty mean anything to them anymore? is this all just a game to them? maybe i should be asking instead, what's wrong with me? if i'm as good a person as i think i am, then why am i still being treated like shit? i really dun understand the way other people live their lives. i'm really naive, to have to take this long to realise that some people actually detest me, by some large unquantifiable amount. some people are playing this like a game. just being able to do anything to get what you want, doesn't give you the right to. if you have any decency, you'd watch what you say and know that things can come back around to bite you. i think your image means alot more to you than you're willing to admit, but if there is any fairness in this world, you'll have it coming a whole lot more, right where it hurts.

but i think that's enough of living someone else's life. i'm sick and tired of living in this pretense where i have to constantly give a shit about what i do or what i say just to have people to like me. ultimately, these people with close to no morals will still say what they wanna say about you, and you can't do anything about it. so it's high time i stop giving a rat's ass what other people do with their lives and what they say about me. if it's really something you want known, say it. and if you've got any guts, you'd say it in my face. i think what really pisses me off is that you say things about me, when you should be looking at yourself before you judge. i would really love to say the same things to you simply because its true, but i would much rather let you discover it for yourself, and let you bask in the glory of humiliation. yes, life is a bitch. so stop pretending you're so great, because you're just like the rest of us. i think i'm letting all of this get to me, but i'm not going to anymore. the shit is about to hit the fan, so my suggestion: get the hell out of the way.