oh wow, i nvr thought i'd get the chance to say this... I GRADUATED! well, 2day was grad ceremony... its one of those times in your life, when you look back, you know regardless of all the wrongs and rights, it is YOUR moment... your time to shine... to be totally honest, i didnt feel at all emotional... it didnt feel like the last time sitting in the hall, the last time listening to the headmaster's speech, the last of the last... it felt just like any other assembly, it almost felt as if i'm awaiting the next skul day the following monday... but sooner or later, reality will kick in and i will realise that i'm no longer a student of Raffles Institution... i am no longer bound by the bricks and mortar, but i will be forever captured within all the memories of this institution... the ceremony went quite smoothly, no big hiccups... all the moving speeches and stuff, and still i have no reaction... it juz really felt so weird, no sadness, no reminiscing, just another day at skul... well, thats not true for everyone though... i saw tears in mrs. tan's eyes, but i know they were tears of joy... and i'm sure many other teachers feel the same way... aside from the ceremony, spammed hell lots of pictures in class... but i didnt bring my camera! wasted, now i'm at the mercy of shawn and chee yang... hope they send me the pictures soon...
it just feels so weird... now i'm beginning to wonder if we were supposed to feel anything at all in the first place... everyone just seems so happy, rejoicing... cheerful laughter everywhere... anyway, other than this very big last, we had one big last on wed as well... we had our higher chinese O's on wed... and i must say it was relatively well handled i think... paper 1 was a tad bit tricky at first but after sorting it out it went pretty smoothly, now i can only hope and pray... as for paper 2, generally ok but it could turn out otherwise... almost had the same situation of not finishing the paper again, but chionged and ended up finishing 15 mins early... well, so much for the last exams ever in RI... no regrets and after the paper we all gave a well deserved cheer...
argh, no matter what i do i just cant seem to get the feeling to sink in... its so strange, it really feels like school hasnt ended... i could almost see myself returning to RI for school again next year... hai, but i'm not... we're gonna see everyone again but its just totally different... what makes memories? izzit the people? the place? or the moments you shared with these people in these places? i think its only a matter of time b4 my emotions take over... so with that, we've ended another chapter of our lives, and embarking on another... i really dun have the emotions to say much right now, pretty much everything i've said was out of context or just really dead...
maybe when the times comes i'll have something much more meaningful to express, and really let out all my feelings... b4 i stop ranting, i think the most appropriate song for this occasion has got to be Matchbox Twenty's "How Far We've Come"... it just really fits the mood in every way possible... its juz the most apt song right now... take a look at some of the lyrics, i think they actually mean something... almost 4got! 2morrow gonna go out grad night shopping and on sun we're going to sentosa! think its really gonna be a blast, hope to come back with a nice tan and lotsa pictures! til then, when the time is right, peace...
I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every other morning before,
now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone.
The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour,
and I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye.
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?
I think it turned ten o'clock but i don't really know,
then i can't remember caring for an hour or so.
Started crying and i couldn't stop myself,
I started running but there's no where to run to.
I sat down on the street and took a look at myself,
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell,
say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to.