HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! 42 great years, with many more to come... and so another day has passed me by, juz like countless others... well its supposed to be the national day hols, the super long weekend everyone's been waiting for... but so far, i've effectively burned half of it (so how long was the weekend supposed to be again?)... wat's waiting on the other side of this is going to sweep the life out of me... there's bio cct, ss social doc and maths assignment all on mon, not to mention the long awaited RI vs HCI game... then of course there's the oral defence, maths cct, chem cct and RE oral presentation to follow... this is probably going to be the most painful 2 weeks in my sec4 life (i hope i dun speak 2 soon), but we're in here for a reason, and if this is anything to go by, we'll make it... its really going to be damn hardcore and there really is not enuff time, dunno how i'm gonna squeeze out every minute juz so i can TRY to cover everything...
2morrow's gonna start off with soccer training real early, preparing 4 the game on mon... i'm supposed to be really excited bout this game cuz this was wat we're all pulled together for, but somehow this game has been the last thing on my mind... was really anticipating this game, but right now i'd give anything juz to stall it, so monday will be as far away as possible for as long as possible... so anyway after training i'm gonna give the rest of my day to ss... its really not easy assuming the leadership position when barely anyone is behind you... its juz so tiring trying to work everything out on ur own... i'm trying so hard to tell myself that watever the result we've tried our best, but i juz cant help thinking this project defines wat kind of leader i am and if this thing screws up then i'm a screw up... i really wanna believe we'll do fine, but the way things are going, we'll really need to bring our A game if we're gonna make it... so 2morrow we're gonna stay til midnight to finish it if we have to, cuz we simply have no other choice... after that's outta the way, i'll have 2 days to prepare for bio (which i really cannot afford to flunk) and maths pt... and that's the other thing... i realised that no1 wants me in their group for any projects, and so i ask myself: am i really such a failure? ok so maybe i'm not a failure, then wat? i dun have friends? i'm gettin really sick and tired of having people calling out to their "friends" over my head asking for groupmates... the feeling juz sucks, and maybe this is why i need this ss project so badly to get some rep for myself... really i'm juz so tired of being the last one chosen, forced into groups or juz simply doing it myself... i've learnt 2 things from this: if you dun have thick skin, ur going nowhere and life's a bitch...
so moving on, went to watch the preview of bourne ultimatum last night and it was really great... the show was nice even though i seriously do not remember watching the first 2... only bad part of the movie was sitting in row 5 and really shaky filming... other than that, it was good... everyone juz seems to be out on national day eve, last year was the same thing... sometimes it juz makes you feel there juz izznt enuff space for everyone... managed to buy this mini-basketball set with the hoop and all while we were out last night, and juz couldnt stop playing 2day... haha, it was really quite cool and my sis has been eyeing it for quite some time now... its really fun for when ur really bored, but it screws up ur shooting form... lol... its all good... anyway, i've been thinking of closing down this blog 4 quite sometime now... dunno why, i juz dun see a point in carrying on... maybe i juz dun have the mood or the time to continue this place, maybe it juz doesnt have a purpose anymore... watever it is, we'll juz have to see lah... dun think i have much else to say already... lost the plot somewhere along the way... next few days gonna be killer, maybe i juz have to keep reminding myself wat we're all doing this for... but then again, wat ARE we doing this for?
