i'm back... i hate 2 admit it, but i'm back... still so much in denial that i'm actually back in singapore and back 2 facing reality... 2 weeks down, 2 more to go... really wish i had no sense of time at all, then i'd have so much less 2 worry about, less 2 think about... so anyway, these 2 weeks have been as unproductive as usual... really, i'm hopeless at ever accomplishing anything i set out 2 do during the hols, ever since the exsistence of hols 2 me... there really has been much going on cept 4 the trip up 2 KL after the party... fell sick the next morning and spent 4 days in KL sleeping and trying 2 fight the friggin sore throats and wat have you... think it was a bit of a bummer when i was sick there, couldnt enjoy the good food, good times and esp the good company... its been raining quite punctually every afternoon that i was there, so i'm quite thankful i managed 2 play some much awaited bball on the last day... looking back on the trip, guess i kinda miss it even though it wasnt the best cuz of my illness, but i wat i really miss the most is the company... really, i think i was being abit of a spoilt sport during my time there (you cant exactly blame me, i'm sick) but they were really nice... there's really nothing like family, and esp ken, lucas, nick and mel, really feels good 2 be at home... its juz different, when you know they'll always be there 4 you man... you know someone out there still has your back... but well now that i'm back in this shithole, guess its back 2 reality...

so i still have so much work left 2 do i dun even feel like describing it... somehow holiday homework seems predestined to be left til the last weekend... anyway, after returning from malaysia, still trying 2 fight the flu, but juz didnt feel like doing anything concrete... between wed and now, i wasted a day, went gymming, watched Pirates Of The Carribean: At World's End, played PS2, tennis and went swimming... all of which had nothing 2 do with work watsoever... sometimes i ask myself, if i really dun bother about work at all, then why do i keep mentioning the amount of work i have left undone (and there i go again)? well, i'm juz happy i started gymming again, only 2 realise how weak i've become... feels so pathetic, wonder if i can get back 2 how i used 2 be or more, hope i can continue consistently... ok, time 2 be a little random, i juz realised that the star from Heroes, Milo Ventimiglia, actually acted in Fergie's new video Big Girls Don't Cry (awesome song btw)... man, do tv stars have a tendency to act in music video or wat, like the Prison Break dude (from mariah carey's video It's Like That and We Belong Together)... anyway, Heroes has juz started 2 become really juicy and i'm so gonna get the DVD set when it comes out or something, and i totally cant wait 2 watch the 2nd season...

moving on, recently (actually it was juz yesterday) i've been listening 2 Bowling For Soup and i realised that they are a damn nice band... its like Fun Rock or something like that, not exactly Punk Rock (you get the picture)... but they're a really good band i think and their songs are not bad oso... i like the way they have so many references to pop culture in their songs, but the sad thing is that they seriously dun get enuff airtime... i like their fat guitarist too... haha... anyway, they have damn nice songs like Girl All The Bad Guys Want, When We Die, High School Never Ends, Almost and 1985... the only sad thing is i dun have all of them... hope someone kind will send me the songs... the songs juz erases all the sad stuff i've been listening to and juz makes you wanna laugh at all the nonsense they're singing about... its good stuff 4 a mundane afternoon and a good i-hate-the-world cure... lol...

well, i've been absolutely quite random up til now... but here comes the boring part... i think i should give love another chance... i've been waiting 4 this long and i really dunno wat i'm waiting 4 anymore... lets not start talking about the past again and how everything should, could and would have been, and definitely not how stupid everything is... but i'm thinking of the future... i mean yeah, i've been doing wat my heart's been wanting to and well i dun exactly have much regrets... but its coming 2 a year now, and thats long enuff... i really should go out there and fall in love again (and i'm not juz saying this for the sake of saying it)... not for you so much as it is for me, but i think everyone deserves a second chance, and all this time i'm juz denying myself that chance... i'm really beginning 2 lose the plot... i'm starting 2 realise not everything is a fairytale, and this is the cold hard real world... if i'm gonna be stuck thinking that something's gonna happen like the last time, then i deserve to be miserable... enough said, dun think i have anything 2 prove to anyone... juz think that both love and i deserve a chance... time to fall in love again? it's reality, i'm back...