its been 2 full weeks since i last blogged and there's some serious catching up 2 do (and the last time i blogged was also a sat, doesnt say very much about my life does it?)... imma try my best 2 fill in the gaps so please bear with me...

this has got 2 be the suckiest week ever, period... it all started off with the game against GES which we unfortunately lost, meaning we have 2 win every single game from now to make it 2 the nationals... well, the feelings from monday have all faded and the memories have been blurred, so there nothing much i can comment about it now but its never nice 2 lose a big game, and it could be the turning point of our season, 4 the good or the bad... well, the girls came down 2 watch our game (every single one of them) and it was really a surprise cuz i nvr expected for all of them 2 come, even shaggy (a.k.a. shaofang)! lol... so it was kinda cool, and jan somehow managed to "dope" my drink and returned me the money... after all the excitement, went back 2 skul for another rehearsal 4 dance, at which point i was already feeling damn sian from the game but still managed 2 drag my ass back there and dance... ended bout 8+ and got home close to 10, and by then i was quite dead (and by dead i mean DEAD, of all times i use that figure of speech, this has got 2 be the closest to the real thing ever)... that was pretty much the story for the whole week, with rehearsal almost everyday 4 the performance on fri...

so i pretty much danced the week away, gettin home late from after trainings and dance prac and stuff, didnt get any work done the whole week cept for 1 zuowen which i surprised even myself... the week juz went by like that, i think i could safely say i slept my week away cuz that the only thing i could do after gettin home... no studying, no hw and no skul related work done, which means if i wasnt behind in skul work, i am now... but i guess it kinda paid off when we got 1st in both junior and senior sections and overall 1st... i must say the juniors did really well and killed off the competition even b4 they could begin, but as 4 the seniors it was quite a ride... i swear i jumped 4 joy when i heard we got 1st, cuz during our dance the AV screwed up and all the other performances looked so good... i guess it is a testament that hardwork really does pay off... i think i'm really proud of our work and everyone's collective effort, both junior and senior, and of course the choreographers... well, its a "2 week mini-season" success, a hard earned one at that... its a good start and if this is anything 2 go by we're on course for another victory (more hardwork calling?)...

its another week gone by, and another weekend arrived... i really couldnt say how much i've been waiting 4 this CNY weekend 2 come, a break from everything and a time 2 get back in touch with all the things i seem 2 have left behind... hopefully i can really get ahold of myself b4 i step back into skul and back into work-mode... this week has also been valentine's week... i gotta say that this has been the WORST valentines ever for me, even in the past when i didnt do much 4 valentines it was better than this... i dun think it was so much being without a date or anything like that (frankly, i had alot of dates that day, if you ignore the gender barrier), neither was it the nostalgic feeling, but it was more of the whole mood of the day and all the nonsense i had 2 go through... one thing that cheered me up was the card from albar... she wrote a card 2 the class and gave us all treats, but it was really the stuff she said in the card... really, she has got 2 be the best teacher ever (which is about the same level as mrs. beins), and 2 know that we still have a place in her heart is kinda sweet oso... lol... no knock against decruz, but i'd have albar back anytime, even if i have 2 write a 5k essay (i might juz live 2 regret that)... must do something 4 albar on teachers' day...

from one teacher to another, saw wok in skul yesterday (CNY celebrations)... i was totally caught off guard and it was a pleasant surprise... she is one cool teacher and its nice 2 see her again... heard that she's gettin married sometime this year and that was another surprise... lol... congrats again 2 ms wok (or mrs. to-be)! well, i've been thinking again, since its vday week and all (did you really expect me 2 be emotionless on vday?), and i really wonder wat love has, has not or has yet done for me? i mean, i ask myself do i really wanna fall in love again? its not that i dun believe in love anymore (maybe you can say that), but am i ready for it, more like do i want it? i dun think i'm afraid of crashing and burning again, but its whether i want to... somehow i juz think its so much easier to have a relationship with no strings attached, commitment issues? i realised that its better we ended, cuz you lied to me, you broke my heart and you are the one with commitment issues... i daresay i still have feelings for you, but i know i did none of those... love is selfish, you had it your way and you can burn in hell for it... so do i want 2 love again? should i wait 4 true love 2 knock on my door or to go looking for it? i think the answer is clear... until i can find someone perfect (at least in my eyes), love is but only a word... and a word it will remain... well, thats all i have 2 say, which is frankly nothing much... i dun even know if i made any sense but to hell with it... as i end off, juz wanna wish everyone a happy CNY... hope 2 catch a few good movies during this break... rest up and rest well, cuz we're all gonna need it... peace...

In life, we somehow get what we want the most when we least expect it, yet we never seem to find what we were looking for...