its been 2 full weeks since i last blogged and there's some serious catching up 2 do (and the last time i blogged was also a sat, doesnt say very much about my life does it?)... imma try my best 2 fill in the gaps so please bear with me...

this has got 2 be the suckiest week ever, period... it all started off with the game against GES which we unfortunately lost, meaning we have 2 win every single game from now to make it 2 the nationals... well, the feelings from monday have all faded and the memories have been blurred, so there nothing much i can comment about it now but its never nice 2 lose a big game, and it could be the turning point of our season, 4 the good or the bad... well, the girls came down 2 watch our game (every single one of them) and it was really a surprise cuz i nvr expected for all of them 2 come, even shaggy (a.k.a. shaofang)! lol... so it was kinda cool, and jan somehow managed to "dope" my drink and returned me the money... after all the excitement, went back 2 skul for another rehearsal 4 dance, at which point i was already feeling damn sian from the game but still managed 2 drag my ass back there and dance... ended bout 8+ and got home close to 10, and by then i was quite dead (and by dead i mean DEAD, of all times i use that figure of speech, this has got 2 be the closest to the real thing ever)... that was pretty much the story for the whole week, with rehearsal almost everyday 4 the performance on fri...

so i pretty much danced the week away, gettin home late from after trainings and dance prac and stuff, didnt get any work done the whole week cept for 1 zuowen which i surprised even myself... the week juz went by like that, i think i could safely say i slept my week away cuz that the only thing i could do after gettin home... no studying, no hw and no skul related work done, which means if i wasnt behind in skul work, i am now... but i guess it kinda paid off when we got 1st in both junior and senior sections and overall 1st... i must say the juniors did really well and killed off the competition even b4 they could begin, but as 4 the seniors it was quite a ride... i swear i jumped 4 joy when i heard we got 1st, cuz during our dance the AV screwed up and all the other performances looked so good... i guess it is a testament that hardwork really does pay off... i think i'm really proud of our work and everyone's collective effort, both junior and senior, and of course the choreographers... well, its a "2 week mini-season" success, a hard earned one at that... its a good start and if this is anything 2 go by we're on course for another victory (more hardwork calling?)...

its another week gone by, and another weekend arrived... i really couldnt say how much i've been waiting 4 this CNY weekend 2 come, a break from everything and a time 2 get back in touch with all the things i seem 2 have left behind... hopefully i can really get ahold of myself b4 i step back into skul and back into work-mode... this week has also been valentine's week... i gotta say that this has been the WORST valentines ever for me, even in the past when i didnt do much 4 valentines it was better than this... i dun think it was so much being without a date or anything like that (frankly, i had alot of dates that day, if you ignore the gender barrier), neither was it the nostalgic feeling, but it was more of the whole mood of the day and all the nonsense i had 2 go through... one thing that cheered me up was the card from albar... she wrote a card 2 the class and gave us all treats, but it was really the stuff she said in the card... really, she has got 2 be the best teacher ever (which is about the same level as mrs. beins), and 2 know that we still have a place in her heart is kinda sweet oso... lol... no knock against decruz, but i'd have albar back anytime, even if i have 2 write a 5k essay (i might juz live 2 regret that)... must do something 4 albar on teachers' day...

from one teacher to another, saw wok in skul yesterday (CNY celebrations)... i was totally caught off guard and it was a pleasant surprise... she is one cool teacher and its nice 2 see her again... heard that she's gettin married sometime this year and that was another surprise... lol... congrats again 2 ms wok (or mrs. to-be)! well, i've been thinking again, since its vday week and all (did you really expect me 2 be emotionless on vday?), and i really wonder wat love has, has not or has yet done for me? i mean, i ask myself do i really wanna fall in love again? its not that i dun believe in love anymore (maybe you can say that), but am i ready for it, more like do i want it? i dun think i'm afraid of crashing and burning again, but its whether i want to... somehow i juz think its so much easier to have a relationship with no strings attached, commitment issues? i realised that its better we ended, cuz you lied to me, you broke my heart and you are the one with commitment issues... i daresay i still have feelings for you, but i know i did none of those... love is selfish, you had it your way and you can burn in hell for it... so do i want 2 love again? should i wait 4 true love 2 knock on my door or to go looking for it? i think the answer is clear... until i can find someone perfect (at least in my eyes), love is but only a word... and a word it will remain... well, thats all i have 2 say, which is frankly nothing much... i dun even know if i made any sense but to hell with it... as i end off, juz wanna wish everyone a happy CNY... hope 2 catch a few good movies during this break... rest up and rest well, cuz we're all gonna need it... peace...

In life, we somehow get what we want the most when we least expect it, yet we never seem to find what we were looking for...

it juz keeps gettin better every week...

so much 4 an event filled week, it all started when we lost our 1st game of the '07 campaign to newtown on tues... a game where not 1, but 2 of our players got taken out due to sprained ankles, unfortunately me included... so that pretty much leaves our season hanging in the balance, with cat high and gan eng seng on the cards, still with everything 2 play for... there's juz this thing tuggin at me, i dun wanna look back at that very match, that very instant and say "That was when it all changed"... i know i wouldnt have been able 2 carry on playing that game, but at the same time i know i would have swung the game in the other direction... everything could rest on the result of that one game, whether or not we make it 2 the nationals and complete that dream... everything could rest (or be put to rest) on this fri... its juz something tuggin at the back of my head, my heart... i know i could've have done any more, but i know its a tough pill 2 swallow...

so with that, and the sprained ankle, i skipped my 2nd day of skul in the new year, and damn was that another wrong turn... i skipped about 12 hours of skul from the game til my next skul day, and that 12 hours was enuff 2 stuff the rest of my week... when i returned on thurs i simply got killed by maths TA, and trigo... damn it was round 2, like the matrices fiasco wasnt bad enuff, this circular measure did me in... plus the trigo which TCY happily burned the whole class by teaching at breakneck speed, when i got back i couldnt understand shit she was saying... seriously, juz when i thought maths was being nice 4 a change, someone tell me when the alarm is going to go? the weekend could not come at a better time, juz need a break to recompose myself, but not b4 surviving friday... yesterday was one kind of madness, with physics quiz, bio retest and eng compre, plus chinese gong han (which i happily slept through the previous night)... so i screwed the physics as usual, another long and miserable year in the sad science of physics... bio was messed, but with high expectations of myself i really could've done better and of course eng, which decruz happily disappeared and had me waiting 4 about an hour b4 showing up, by then there was really nothing left 4 me to do so we juz skipped the whole disaster altogether... one rough day to sum up one rough week... it juz keeps gettin better...

only highlight i take away from this week is dance prac yesterday evening for CNY talent-time... 1st official dance rehearsal for junior and senior categories of moor house, pretty effectively done i must say... the juniors were enthu yes, but they were killing az out there... really wanna throw him a lifeline but i juz dunno how 2... like watching a plane gettin shot down but i think everything will be ok... as for the senior, well it was fun 4 sure, but as 2 how much it's gonna take 2 actually make good, is another story altogether... effort must be commended, and i think they did a really decent job but we wont know how much its gonna take or where we stand til we see wat the other houses have up for show... its like a "mini 2-week season" from now til CNY celebrations, which also brings about valentine and a good long break in about the same breathe... so anyway, the dance was quite cool and i'm really hyped-up again (think it died abit when i lost track of the dance) and hope it really goes well... will be up at full swing once my ankle allows me, which also means training... damn i juz wanna kick shit out there, the feeling juz sucked when everyone else died fighting while i'm sitting on the side with an ice pack in one hand and a clutched fist in the other... you know it hurts when you see that, and screaming ur throat out is juz not quite enuff... wont let the team fight alone, cuz we are juz that when we dun fight together... quite abit of randomness and quite the wrong paragraph...

moving on, was checking out this video of RK house on youtube last night, and by no means is it condoned in any and every sense of the word (but hell it was funny), i still watch it anyway for entertainment... but thats beside the point, the point is i watched a video response to the rk house vid and i juz found my second love in life... ok maybe thats abit whacked but she was sure as hell hot... so anyway, i tracked her down and came 2 this: http://nicolekiss.blogspot.com... ok, one thing she looks really awesome after her lasik surgery and another, she looks juz as hot with her specs on (which is why i noticed her in the 1st place)... when i 1st heard her speak in the video response i thought i heard a malaysian tone of eng in her voice but comments accounted her accent 2 british influence, but screw them i was right, her hometown is in malacca and i've heard enuff malaysians speak eng to know wat it sounds like (no offence)... i juz got mesmerised but i think maybe its juz me... i'm not here 2 spread news about her blog or stuff (which i think i'm already doing by typing this), but its juz something that caught, and held my attention for the most part... saw quite a few of her video entries and she juz looks more "IT" everytime... the way she types juz reminds me of someone, and the more i read the more i feel that i'm actually reading something that she is writing... anyway, i think its juz the infatuation bug and it'll blow over in a bit but there's really no harm check it out right? captivating...

ok to the last bit of the post already, kinda caught the 1st episode of Heroes on star world not 2 long ago, and damn izzit like X-men or wat... but its really nice and i'll probably be catching it every wed from now (missed the "premiere" this wed), if trainings permit... its really cool 2 see all the super powers and somehow it juz nvr gets old... "Every ten year old kids dreams of having super powers, and now i have them." i'm still having that dream sometimes, and its a good dream 2 have... its some funkedelic shit to control time/space, see the future or even heal instantly... but i guess its the whole idea of super powers and destiny that juz captured me... we're all the same, wat is my destiny? ok enuff ranting, seriously it juz keeps gettin better... one turn, one move and one mistake, is all it takes to make it all change... dun let this be one of them... peace...

"And in the air the fireflies,
Our only light in paradise."