its been a really long week i must say and i'm thankful the weekend is finally here... well for starters i felt sick right at the beginning of the week so i managed 2 pon my 1st day in the new year! haha, last year i only remember ponning skul like twice so i'm 1 away from my quota if i wanna maintain a good attendance (who gives a hoot really?)... lol... and there was of course the 1st game of the season! it wasnt really so much of a big thing 2 me lah, as in i wasnt all that excited or hyped up, despite it being the final season for RI and all... it was juz another day at work 2 me i guess... really felt zero up until we actually stepped onto the courts and took our first steps into this new season... got kinda fired up and ready for showtime, but somehow we (the whole team) managed to screw up our 1st game... always had this ominous feeling at the back of my mind, and it juz had 2 happen... alot has been said post-match, but most importantly i feel we juz have 2 come 2gether as a team... i still dun feel that team unity and bonding, how are we gonna fight as a team if we (or at least i) dun feel as a team? i juz dun get that i-will-die-for-you kinda spirit... like somehow we're juz playing as 5 players on the court, not as 1 team... i dunno, maybe its juz me but i think if there are problems we should come together and fix it... do you really think we can do it? its time to prove it to ourselves...

so much for our 1st game, gonna be another hardcore week next week lah... tues and thurs games, with probable trainings on mon, wed AND fri... not 2 mention all the assignments and test flooding in... this weekend alone i have maths assignment and chinese zuowen, chem OBA and maths TA, finally maths pt... really have that feeling juz 2 get everything outta the way so i'll have a clear mind when tues comes around... moving to the lighter side of life, there's this up coming inter-house talent-time and each house has 2 prepare a song and dance item! so i was quite excited when i heard about the dance part cuz it sounded really cool... not saying i'm any good at dancing but its some group dance thingy and it really sounds quite fun... so i've been doing some research on dancing by watching videos! haha... and i came across this video of ivan and allison from So You Think You Can Dance where they did a hiphop/r&b rendition of Ne-yo's Sexy Love... that was seriously one of the most awesome owning dance renditions of all time man... i got so hooked onto it i juz couldnt stop pressing that play button... the moves were awesome and more importantly i think ivan and allison make a great couple! they're juz so good with each other, got some serious chemistry going on there... really fell in love with them, not to mention allison izznt all that bad looking either... haha... dancing is so not easy, cuz to dance well you gotta dance with confidence, and not everyone can bring across a good performance... hope we can come up with a good dance routine and do well, and hopefully i can be a part of it oso... i seriously wonder when i should stop dreaming... haha...
time never seems to stop haunting me... sometimes i really wish i dun have 2 suffer this torment everytime i think about it... maybe for once i'll be man enuff to face it, to do wat i need to, and maybe this pain inside will die away... at least, for now...