Goodbye 2006

1st of all, i must say its great 2 be back home! it was one hell of a mad time in malaysia and it was friggin awesome! lol... well, it seemed like 8 long days but i didnt regret it one bit... the 1st few days were spent with relatives from my dad's side (not much but more than enuff), took a coach down to KL with my cousins and uncles and aunts and all... it was those super luxury coaches so it was pretty cool, had those super big seats and stuff... although the bus ride was 8 friggin hours long, the experience was great cuz i dun get that many bus rides... so did a little shopping in the heart of KL up til christmas, didnt buy alot but i felt guilty enuff buying all the stuff i bought, like more shirts (which i have even MORE of yet 2 be worn) and more shorts (well, tough 1 but still very guilty)... i know shopping is not exactly a guy thing but its nice once in awhile... shopping til ur guilty? not good in every sense of the word so i've had my fill 4 now! it was kinda first time travelling with my relatives and it was a great experience, had a great time with my cousin whom i nvr get 2 speak 2 4 almost a year and all the other fun stuff, hoping this kinda thing happens more often... so bade my relatives on my dad's side goodbye on christmas day and moved on to my relatives on my mum's side... this is where all the actions really starts...

so spent a good couple of days with my cousins (my other cousins) and really did quite abit... ate alot of good food (i mean ALOT), so much food that i think i nidda do some serious working out now... got alot of songs 2, had a good amount of my time infront of the com simply looking at the songs, i was practically in music heaven... i didnt know wat i missing out on... lol... so that was definitely 1 big plus... spent alot of time hanging out with my cousins, as in really hanging out... it juz feels so great 2 be around family that are as good as ur friends... they are really great guys, great friends and almost like a brother i nvr had... really chilled out, wont 4get all the talks we had in the middle of the night, juz talking and emptying our hearts and our minds... it was a really good break from everything here in singapore, left all the problems and worries behind, nvr once let it bother me, cuz quite frankly it was really hard 2 think about the bad stuff in such great company... there were good times, and there were bad... well, my grandfather had a stoke on the day that we left after visiting him... nvr really got 2 know how he was doing after that but i hope hes doing ok... heard he was doing better but had no control over his right side, praying he'll get well in the quickest time... my aunt izznt feeling very much better oso, think her stomach is acting up on her again... she was trying 2 be strong the whole time my family was stayin over at her house, but sometimes you could juz see the pain on her face... so much so that it hurts... its been awhile but may she be blessed and recover soon... one other (rather) big disappointment was that my cousin didnt manage 2 get in2 HCIS... he was given the option of going through a 9 months crash course in HCIS b4 being put in2 the education system proper but it was too much a waste of time... so he will be starting the new academic year in malaysia b4 flying off 2 NZ in 2008 for 4 years... well, i could feel the disappointment in his eyes and the frustation on his face... sometimes its not really someone's fault, sometimes maybe its juz not that way, but you have 2 understand how a man feels sometimes... i guess he has 2 suffer another year in malaysia b4 he finally gets his wish of leaving the place but i'm juz wishing him the best, its probably the last year i'll see him until after my NS so i'll juz make the most of it...

talking about the lasts, 2day is the last day of 2006 (how can i possibly 4get that)! alot 2 think about, alot 2 ponder over and sure as hell alot 2 remember... so much happening in 2006 that i dunno where 2 start, and if i'd start i wonder if i would ever stop... it was an experienced filled year... one where lessons were learnt, one where hearts broken and promises made, and one where everything is 2 live for... i really dun think i can sum everything up in juz a few simple lines, but all i know is this: it was one hell of a journey, one that has yet 2 end, one that is juz about 2 begin, but as for the roads that have led me here, have changed the way i am about 2 walk the paths ahead... i think of all the lessons that i think i've learnt, there's one i wanna remember 4ever; a simple change in mindset can change the whole world... durin this last week of hols, not once did i brood over wasting my time in malaysia when i could be better spending it some place else... not only because of the company, but also because i told myself to enjoy watever i have... not 2 think about it and juz go 4 it, enjoy wat i have and juz be happy... and happy i was... when my cousins and i took a trip sunway lagoon, i could've sworn it was my biggest nightmare... i wasnt exactly the biggest fan of theme park rides but i said heck it, i'm going 2 have fun... it was really the 1st time i went 4 all those mad rides, and it was a blast... given any other time, and any other mindset i would've juz wasted my day at the theme park, but i went 4 it, played my heart out and did things i nvr thought i could do... as simple as that, a simple change in heart, a change in the way you see things could do miracles... it may not seem much, but 2 me it changed the world...

and that is why i feel that this is the most fruitful week in all of the 8 weeks of skul hols... i may not have done work at all during this time (damn, i'm pissed at myself... wat kind of clown says one thing and does another? a jerk, i am), and i may not have really rested my body very much (staying awake at 3am every night 4 2 weeks is not healthy 4 the body, let my pimples speak 4 me), but my mind is clear and my soul refreshed, awaiting the new year... there's so much i wanna talk about missin 2006 and everything that has happen, reminiscing the past because i know it will nvr come back, but 4 1 time this year (and probably the most apt time), i wont... because i'm looking 4ward to 2007... i know it will be another day, another year 4 me 2 leave a mark... do wat i wanna and make a difference, because there will be no better time... maybe this time i'm clearer on wat i wanna do about my life in 2007, i've walked roads that i can safely say no other 15 year old has trodden, and if thats anything 2 go by, 2007 will be a better year... not only do i look 4ward 2 another year with my friends, accompanied by the work and more work, i look 4ward 2 be able 2 accomplish things i nvr even thought of trying... i wanna get my 3.6 GPA, i wanna play better bball, i wanna become stronger, i wanna be a better friend, i wanna be a bettter man... so much in so little time, maybe i'm thankful that 2006 is over because that means i have a whole new year to work on wat i couldnt do in this past year...

words are not enuff 2 capture my feelings right now, as much as i wanna look ahead i cant help but turn around... i really have so much i wish 2 say, but i know it will mean nothing as soon as the words appear on my screen... maybe its best i dun think about it now, 4 i know i am not strong enuff 2 hold myself back... maybe its best to look ahead into the future, 4 the past can only hold painful memories... maybe its best to leave it all behind and 4get, 4 that is the only way i know how... maybe its juz best that way... woah, that dunno where that came from but there goes... nothing written without thoughts and emotions (maybe a little too much sometimes)... and talking about too much, this is juz about the longest single post i've ever written... haha... every reason 2 be proud, even if i'm going 2 be the only clown to read it again and again... so juz some random info right now: this afternoon at 1600hrs was the first time in 3 weeks i've slept in my bed and it smelt a little moldy (haha, if you get my drift)... and i juz watched a night at the museum juz a couple of hrs ago! it is seriously a really great show, light-hearted and a wonderful movie 2 round off 2006... wouldnt have picked any other show 4 the last show of 2006! argh, i juz cant stop saying the last something of 2006! lol... well, it really is the last of the last of 2006 already, and (thankfully) i think i've come 2 the end of the last post of 2006... think i've said everything 2 my heart's content, and i'll juz end off with one very memorable line by the wax figure teddy roosevelt (robbin williams) in A Night At The Museum: "I am only made of wax, what are you made of?" peace and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hello 2007