so much happening already in the early parts of the hols, taking up a good part of my time even b4 i have a chance 2 use it... first of all, there's of course bball... the inevitable, inescapable one and only, basketball... well, top of the news, got in2 the national U-15 team that will be travelling 2 thailand somewhere in december i think... not really over the moon that i got in2 the team cuz i lost heart in the national team and i dun think i deserve it one bit... dunno how much i will be playing oso, that leaves much 2 be seen, not really pinning alot on this "acceptance" in2 the team, juz hoping it would be a good experience and one not eagerly waiting 2 be remembered... still on bball, kinda had a sucky game yesterday, one which (has been said far 2 many times already) we should have owned but in the end kena owned ourselves... it was a crap game, didnt bring myself 2 the game and didnt perform at all... really should have crushed those guys but somehow or rather we got crushed, in more ways than one... really making me wonder how far i'm gonna take this bball thing, 2 wat extent am i going 2 do this? really starting 2 think of my options, not saying i wont give my best and all this final season, but juz thinking of whether or not 2 continue this dying spark, maybe its juz waiting 4 something 2 revive the passion and fire...

moving on, got wind that i got accepted to this WEP (Work Exposure Program) with The Oriental Hotel... kinda excited (in fact really excited) that i got selected (along with probably 99 others) for this thing, thought it would be cool 2 go out and have a little working experience, on top of that can do it with friends (ivan and yande oso got selected)... really wanna go 4 this but good opportunities often come with setbacks nipping right at their heels... first and most importantly, there's of course bball training (wat would life be without trainings i wonder?), the WEP is on going for 2 weeks, and there's probably work almost everyday so without a doubt i will miss training, but how much am i willing 2 miss? i'm really taking my chances with this, trying 2 do everything in my power 2 go 4 this WEP, squeeze every little bit of opportunity i can outta this, hopefully the WEP is only 4 1 week and i wont miss out on 2 much of the trainings (kinda have my mind set on going 4 this WEP)... another problem, which may seem trivial but nevertheless important, the 2C'05 class chalet... ivan, yande and myself have been chosen 4 this thing, along with the possibility of other 2C guys gettin chosen (all of which might not be 4 the hotel, others jobs a possibility 2), which ultimately means that there might be very little people going 4 the class chalet... frankly, i wouldnt miss the chalet 4 the world, but if this (the WEP thingy) has 2 happen then a sacrifice has 2 be made somewhere... worst come 2 worst only attend the chalet at night, but that can be sorted out later... really dun wanna leave tat wai hanging like that, later he planned everything so well and in the end no1 turns up... now gettin this screwy feeling, but i guess i juz have 2 leave everything til thurs when we meet up in skul 2 get more info on everything... hopefully i can make the right decision then...

onto bigger stuff, and hopefully farther away stuff... thurs, where more than 1 decision has 2 be made right (not only on my part) as i go 4 my dental appointment (again) 2 fix up my braces... hopefully my decision 2 put on braces is the right one and juz pray 2 the heavens that the dentist will friggin put my goddamn braces on already... the wait is friggin killing me, i know what comes after the wait WILL, eventually... after this long wait, is another one waiting, for 2 whole friggin years... may time have mercy... other than the chalet 2 look 4ward 2 in about slightly less than a week's time, there's the bball malaysian trip 2 look 4ward 2 coming this 27th to 30th nov... now that is one bball item i would be more than happy 2 look 4ward 2... and there should a trip down 2 malaysia again, but not 4 basketball, rather a good chilling out with family, all in due time... well, this hols already looks packed enuff 4 me, without me wanting 2 stuff mugging and relaxing (ps2, hanging out) in2 the picture... really wanna get something productive done this hols, and not burn it away like all the other times i could remember... its already the 7th of nov, and in 8 weeks skuls starts again, i dun wanna start skul 8 weeks from now accomplishing wat could have been done in 1 week... i wanna do something meaningful and good... i dun have much time left, one thing i have 2 keep reminding myself... well, a very busy hols i forsee, i feel the time already slipping away between my fingers... i know i have 2 treasure every minute as though it were my last, as far as the end of hols might seem... gotta start making good use of my time... signing off, nothing much better 2 say... the results of this hols will speak 4 itself 8 weeks from now... peace...