havent been bloggin in a while, really been out and about these couple of days... well this week was really quite slack, ended all my dmps and this term of skul for that matter... wed no skul but had training in the morning after which went 2 coach's office 2 play... went there wanted 2 do work, but its common knowledge that it was going 2 be impossible, so not bettin on any work done... played a little of winning eleven, halo 2 and CS... didnt really play much oso, after that went 2 cuppage with az stanley and kee yao 2 play pool, kena freaked out by some guy and left early... felt it was kinda wasted so hung around with az and stanley until it was time 2 go home... thurs went 2 skul 4 teachers' day celebrations, well it was once again kinda screwed... i guess i was abit critical about the national day celebrations oso cuz the venue is seriously hard 2 plan 4 fun activities, so as this teachers' day celebrations... with that said, it was still screwed... ended up wasting away 1 hr listening 2 music in class and doing up cards that no1 really meant 4 any of our teachers... was the 1st time i really felt no meaning watsoever 2 teachers' day at all... then went JB atrium and stoned again, entertainment from jon gan's band? nice songs i feel... after that went back 2 skul alone (after failing 2 meet angie), met up with all the guys and saw mrs. beins, mr. see, mr. heng, mr. tan all... quite hard 2 believe it has only been 3 years since i stepped out of that skul, it feels like ages, but the people nvr seem 2 change... bing gui and wen hao changed alot though, nearly couldnt recognise them... feels good 2 be back with the old guys, abit short on topics, but hit off after awhile... hopefully 2 see them again this sept hols...

yesterday, went 2 redhill (again) to see some game maker, mr. henry ong regarding our RE... gonna patent our game and sell it, somewhere along that line... from RE failures 2 RE congress nominees (fat hope)? anyway, spent like 4 hours in a "meeting" with that guy and the other RE group only 2 come out realising that our board game sucks and theirs is quite good... on the other hand, i oso realised that our game has more appeal in terms of detail and quality, whereas they have the content... so hafta see how it goes, hopefully our hardwork, no matter good or bad, doesnt go 2 waste... now i'm not so interested in the money (cuz i dun even know whether can get the funding), but it would sure be a nice incentive and reward... now juz pray he speaks good of us in front of cheryl yap... after that ate with the guys, shit loads of fats and oil shoved down my throat cuz damn hungry, felt abit guilty so went 2 gym after that in redhill delta complex... bloody huge place, biggest 1 i've been in i think, but not many "useful" stuff... only got 1 bench press (which i did not manage 2 do), alot of machines (which i try 2 stay away from as much as possible) so basically not much done... best gym so far is still clementi... so juz did abit then chao 2 meet az they all 4 movie... watched the devil wears prada with az, danny, stanley and simon (simon!!! 1st time i see him out)... the show was not bad but could tell all the chicks in there were abolutely flippin out... definitely a chick flick (girls would love it lah), but got anne hathaway so not 2 bad oso lah... would have much prefered 2 watch something else but a nice change of movie taste... saw alot of peps there, some RI guys (nigel?), ex-RI teachers (!!!) and even jing yi (ask around if u dunno who that is)? not surprised being a skul hol... danny left after the movie leaving the rest of us 2 slack around... basically juz walk about aimlessly, went 2 far east there and bought stuff... saw even more people along the way, grace chong and even some actress from quite awhile back? so much so that it turned in2 a who-can-spot-the-most-(hot)-people-we-know contest... i keep saying i see ms cho... lol... of all people we meet, i juz couldnt bump in2 the only person i wanna see right now in the whole world... so after that ate in BK (slowly becoming a real favourite if not already) then rocked myself home with simon...

so 2day another day of out-ness (is it even a word?)... had training in the morning, ate with the rest of the guys and went gymming after that alone again in tp... hai, i realised i abit sad life, but since when it wasnt? not gonna be spared next week oso, with combined skuls game on mon, trainings, gymming (a particular 1 with muscle man?), and hopefully try 2 squeeze in some work and ps2 and outing along the way... 1 week of hols burned like that already...

dunno why i juz felt so bitter on teachers' day celebrations... juz my emotions gettin the better of me again... why cant i juz seem 2 let go? am i juz pretending all this while? i've ran through it a thousand times in my head, and on that very day i was going 2 do it... i had everything ready and prepared, the only thing that i left out was that it would nvr get that far... juz really started 2 drown myself in my emotions again... the rain was pouring like it nvr meant 2 stop, i juz didnt have the guts 2 do it... these few days juz keep thinking, keep letting myself go with no control... why does this day make any more an impact than any other day? i bet my life that on fri i was going 2 bump in2 you... guess it was not going 2 happen... then wat about all those times? does this mean that it is really over? it has been over, i juz nvr accepted it nor have i believed it... at the back of my mind i hold this tiny flicker of hope, that we will be back together again... is this a sign? that i'm the fool again? cant stop thinking about you... i know that you're not thinking about me 2... then why am i feeling like this?

got a couple of new songs lately, downloaded like half the veronicas album... totally think their style is quite cool, semi-rock semi-pop... like the song "everything i'm not" and "speechless", have a listen (although its not 1 of their singles)... evanescence "call me when you're sober" is another nice song, cant wait 4 their album "The Open Door" out 3rd october... expecting big things, amy lee is quite hot in the video btw... still yet 2 get the Panic! At The Disco and Paramore album from danny, one of these days... paramore album out in HMV, but at 37 bucks its daylight robbery... sampling from danny tells me that paramore are going 2 do big things in the future... worth a listen, totally awesome... think i'd end off already, already late in geog pt which i should be doing now... i'm screwed, somebody tell me that... get it over with so i can cry peacefully... 1 week, b4 all hell breaks loose... signing out, peace...

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