the past week of my life hasnt been the best in a very long time... life juz gives u shit after shit, and juz when u thought it couldnt get any worse, guess wat, it did... i'm not going 2 dwell on the living hell my life has been the past week, neither am i going 2 talk about the living hell my life is going 2 be... i'm juz gonna enjoy the good (that i can find) in life...
juz watched a super emo vid on az's blog... all RI '07 bballers (others oso most welcome) a MUST to watch it... i swear i nearly cried (maybe cuz i'm emotionally unstable oso, but seriously it was a really touching and inpiring video)... really flipped my "emotional switch" on... 2day was the day of a hell (somewhat, but by no means the end) week of skul... had a full day of lessons, and was quite glad to end 2 modules 2day (being geog which i kinda wish would last longer and bio which i would pray 4 it 2 never begin in the first place, cept 4 the movie "gattaca" which is an entirely different story altogether)... after skul chionged my stupid chem presentation which i ultimately did NOT present, as much as i wished i did, relieved to get it outta the way and (more or less) not get bogged down by it... then went 2 play soccer (somehow managed 2 play although i am clueless as 2 how it happened with so many people on the pitch at the same time, it amazes me), not very long but drag and drag until everyone sian (including me), failed 2 go gym once again (another 1 of those things that i'm really disappointed in)... met yan de and ryan teo after that, where yan de left us 4 training while ryan teo and i went 2 drink bubble tea and slack then went j8... wah, seriously nvr had such a good talk with anyone 4 such a long time, from soccer (a very common interest) to chalet, from "Drake And Josh" to "Life As We Know It" (omg cant believe that ryan teo oso watch life as we know it!!! it totally owns lah!!! so does ryan teo, lol)... talk 4 about an hour plus reaching 2 hrs, then we chao-ed home... nvr realised how much i share in common with ryan teo, juz talk and talk and talk, felt that it could go on 4ever man (abit exaggerated but it sure felt like it lah), and ryan teo is a damn nice guy, very easy 2 get along and very friendly... felt it was a great way 2 spend the afternoon (which would have otherwise been spent sleeping, this being the more fruitful and meaningful way of spending an afternoon)... after that came home and massaged my back with a tennis ball (damn random but u'll see where i'm gettin 2), then i realised that i have 3 tennis balls and started juggling... lol... seriously, juggling... suck like cock at 1st but after abit of practice could do it reasonably well, juggled 4 like 2hrs lah (not consecutively of course)... somehow found it extremely entertaining, after that asked myself why the hell i wasted 2hrs of my life juggling balls... only answer i got was that i'm a weird bastard and that life really has no reasons, maybe if i do it well enuff i can go join circus (juz a thought?)...
recently been collecting songs like siao, all credits go 2 chris fang and limewire... dunno why suddenly everything juz popped up inside me like that, i even took out my mp3 again (since like couple of months ago when i lost all my music files)... nice 2 re-live the good old days... juz listening 2 all kinds of songs, like love, pop and rock (courtesy of chris fang again)... really nice 2 somewhat re-introduce music back into my life... talking about life, the bio lessons juz gave me a whole new outlook on life man... its like life is so fragile, sometime when ur in the prime of ur life u juz lose everything, more than juz money or stuff like that... everything... its juz so scary, imagine if u could die at any moment, and when u least expected it ur gone... juz made me think about treasuring every moment as if it was my last... but then again if everyone were 2 think like that the human race would be extremely dull and boring, not 2 mention gay with the world's population probably being wiped out by phobias of sorts, u get the drift... anyway, juz sure made me a whole lot more emo and appreciative (at least 4 now ba)... wish i could thank everyone but i know that's impossible, so i'll juz do it in my actions ba (i hope)... not biting off more than i can chew? juz so many things that cant be captured simply in words... so many feelings, so many emotions, so many thoughts... wish i could do or say more, juz gotta grab the chance... reviving the emotional side of johnny, the side that i once knew...
RI Basketball '07
