well its a tuesday again (haha, somehow guess tues juz always have 2 come around eh?)... 13th june was a tues, but nvm that was completely irrelevant... pretty uneventful these couple of days cept 4 watching of pirates 2, thought it was only so-so, dunno why everyone say damn nice... didnt like it when they left alot of things hanging juz like that, all the loose ends, yeah its cuz of pirates 3 but i think that was wat took it away from me... alot of details in the movie 2 (good or bad?)... finally got my ic on monday (totally 4got about it lah, guess it wasnt really that big), nothing much of the news but thought i looked kinda funky in the pic (actually its like crap but leaning juz that little more 2 the funky side)... been frettin over eng oral and physics quiz these couple of days (eng since last fri actually and physics since nvr), both of which have yet 2 materalize... oral more or less outta the way (which i would have preferably done 2day) but physics still nowhere (hopefully can pretend 2 mug physics again later 4 the 3rd day in a row, lol)... still have 2 chiong eng portolio b4 friday and with that sums up my work 4 this week (pretty much)... had tuition juz now, then went down 2 the gym in my condo... wasnt so much a piece of crap as i thought, still had some stuff so i did what i can, less hardcore cuz saving 4 2morrow (gonna do the new abs exercise gerrard taught us, lol)... hai, dunno why juz cant seem 2 be able 2 pay any attention in class these few days lah... i slept through half of maths 2day (which basically means i'm screwed ), chem was a total flop (screwed again), physics and chinese were barely there (again and again)... juz dun seem 2 be able 2 catch anything in class, dun feel like and simply juz cant... its like i'm trying 2 but nothing seems 2 be going in... i'm damn scared 4 my chem, physics, chinese and maths now lah... really dun wanna screw up any of them, especially chem... gotta start extra muggin soon? die lah... on a completely separate (and random) note, carrie chong is taking say it with music!!! alright man, 987 must have finally bought a brain on ebay or something... carrie chong totally rocks lah, and i can finally hear her from 8-11 on SIWM (where she used 2 do the 2-5 shift and i was probably in skul or sleeping lah wth)... jamie yeo's married so i dun quite really care about her anymore (lol)... young and daniel ong are taking the 5-8 shift, and i must say that they're quite funny 2gether, not bad a combo (frankly, daniel ong is ok but the real joker is young... he took SIWM b4 and i know)... hai, my life is gettin really dull (either that or i'm gettin really dull), no1 pays any friggin attention 2 me, i talk about lame and irrelevant stuff (read above 2 get an idea) and most importantly, i feel dead... dunno what the hell is going on man... hai, juz hope can get myself back on track lah...

dunno why i keep thinking about u these couple of days... my lack of concentration as a result? i know watever i say or do wont make much of a difference, yet i dunno why i'm doing it all the same... i ask myself, "did i lose my love to someone better? does he love you like i do?" i really do... help me 2 move on, give me strength, pick me up... only you...