the weekend is finally here... wont say it was a very productive week, but at least a couple of quizzes are outta the way... so 2day had combined skuls training... felt it was pretty ok, kinda sorta gettin myself back on track? was quite ok up til the point where bai jiarong suggested shooting 150 3ptrs... my shooting sucks (not saying it was good in the 1st place but u get the point), think we took a good 30 mins 2 hit all 150 shots? so after that went 2 tp 2 gym (by myself again), damn lot of people there, abit surprised 4 a saturday (but then again wats there 2 be surprised about?)... did a couple of stuff, cuz went gym yesterday so 2day juz slack a little (alone somemore so abit sian), but in the end still felt it was quite shiok... after that took a train home (with 25 cents in my ezlink card?), bought cheap bread and stoned at home... stoned til about 230 when my sis english tutor came around... if there's 1 thing about her that struck me, it would definitely be that she's very very attractive (notice i didnt use the word hot, thought i'd change up the vocab)... and i mean VERY attractive... heard from my sis that she's mixed (half eurasian half chinese)? that explans her more than prominent curves... well, nvr really got a good chance 2 take a good look at her, but 4 1 thing she's really quite the something... now there's a reason 4 me 2 get home b4 230... lol... my sis piano teacher oso damn cho, but in both cases (eng and piano), i nvr really get 2 take a good look at them... hai, if i had a younger brother i'd probably beat him up lah (lucky bugger)... lol... some people juz get all the luck... so moving on, havent done any work watsoever 2day, which means i'm screwed... got eng speech 2 prepare, eng portfolio 2 do (the whole friggin thing lah), physics quiz 2 mug (postponed from last week) and basically alot of other stuff... now its like damn sian lah, knowing that i have so much left 2 be done, i juz keep going around finding stuff (other than work) 2 do lah... juz dun feel like doing work, but there's nothing else 2 do!!! damn sian lah... feel like watching pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest, hope can watch 2morrow lah... my other com (now using laptop again) is friggin screwed again lah (did i mention it?), so i'm thinking imma start from scratch here again, hopefully my laptop wont screw me over like the other com did... ok, i'm running outta things 2 talk about (why am i not surprised?)... ending off with a couple of thoughts...

realised now that when i come online, there's pretty much nothing 4 me 2 do, not really anyone 4 me 2 talk 2... realised that sometimes i wish 4 things 2 happen, that nvr will... sometimes i keep thinking that u'll ask me out one day 4 no good reason, juz 2 watch a movie or something... the more i think of it, the more i juz give up... i cant really remember how u looked like when i last saw u, dun think i know how u look like now... its not that long a time now izzit? 1 month? funny how things turn out, izznt it? thought about it, and i think that imma remain alone 4 quite some time at this rate... not saying that i wanna stay single or that i dun wanna try, its juz that i dunno how 2 bring myself 2 be emotionally attached 2 someone else when i know that ur the one i want... i juz cant bring myself 2 do it... doesnt matter if the person is 10 times better than u, it's juz not u... its juz different... i'm not upset or anything, but i juz wonder sometimes, wats the point in me saying all these when u probably dun quite give a shit... hai, nvm lah, cant change wat u cant control... change wat u can... here's the last stanza of the chinese poem from b4, realised i missed out the best part of the poem, guess i was 2 caught up in my own misery 2 actually see the other side of the picture... now that i see it in totality, this last stanza, is probably the most powerful 1... and should (more than the previous 3) describe how i feel 2wards everything... here goes:

世界上最遥远的距离
不是
明明无法抵挡这种思念
却还得故意装做丝毫没有把你放在心里。
而是
用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人，
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠。