i still dream about u; i'm not missing you... i still feel u close 2 me; i'm not missing you... i still wish u never left; i'm not missing you... i won't stop loving you unless i can find someone better... the best 195 days of my life... lover's fool...

hai, gettin so emotional again... must be the rain, juz cant help but 2 think back... if only heaven's tears could wash away all the memories... juz dunno how stop thinking about u... yes i'm living my life, but in the shadow of our past? hai, nvm lah juz gotta try 2 move on... well, didnt do much these 2 days, pretty much counting on the fact that i have 1 extra day 2morrow, but in the end i have a feeling i'll get screwed pretty bad (cuz i'm comtemplating on going out 2morrow?)... got all these quizzes and assessments coming in next week, maths, phyics, chinese, bio and eng (last 3 all on thurs)... then still got maths portfolio? dunno lah, really no mood 2 think about all that work and muggin that's left 2 be done... 2night is world cup finals, probably the last (or close 2 last) time i will be ranting on about world cup already... 4 years, 1 game... italy vs france, everything boils down 2 this... got the whole world watching 2night (2morrow morning 2 be exact), everyone is talking about it, with alot of views on both finalists, cant quite be bothered 2 say much here cuz watever that can be said, has probably been repeated a good 10-20 times, so i juz hope italy will win... well, watched this show on mtv "The Wade Robson Project"? this dancing show, were people juz basically, dance... dunno why, got abit hooked on2 it (cuz quite frankly right, those people on the show, not half of them are even good, but everything is hip hop there, so basically anything goes), see all those guys and chicks break down impossible beats... some are quite good lah must admit, others juz look like they were born without any sort of coordination watsoever... kinda hoping 2 see more of those break-dancing style, a little disappointed in that aspect but the beat that these people dance 2 are totally whacked man, and the dj is damn good (she's a girl btw)... yeah, suddenly got this dancing fever sweeping over me, but dun worry, i'm not going 2 doing anything stupid until i got some skills (then again, i could still be doing something stupid)... feel like learning break-dancing + hip hop dancing, hiya but feel like learning alot of things, in the end still stay at home and sleep... but dancing requires alot of confidence, and i kinda respect those dudes and chicks on the stage man... talking about dancing, 2night got shall we dance i think, starring j lo and some old dude (think its richard gere, haha, richard gere, no more birds lol)... seems like quite a nice show, maybe i'll watch it later... there's pirates of the caribbean: curse of the black pearl, probably watch that 1 too in anticipation of the sequel pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest... wanna watch that 1, but only opens this thurs... yeah, so that's my line up 4 2night, got nothing much 2 do til the world cup finals at 2am so guess i have time 2 burn... feel like going out 2morrow, maybe gym and pool then hang out in orchard or something... gonna be the same as 2 weeks ago when the rest of the world is anywhere but hanging out... i tell u, our skul is seriously screwed... but 2morrow got no movies 2 watch (i'm not watching garfield 2 and i'm sure as HELL not watching superman returns), abit sian... maybe watch re-cycle? who's up 4 it? hahahahaha, i'll probably be screaming my ass outta the cinema... lol... see how lah, really dun wanna be couped up at home, dun wanna give myself any room 2 think... listening 2 the song "I'm Not Missing You" by stacie orrico, probably the only way i know how 2 convince myself that i'm not missing you... who am i trying 2 kid? i'll juz end up feeling more miserable than b4... cuz i AM missing you... shit, i'm not thinking straight again... think i'll juz stop here, someone please tell me what i gotta do juz so i can be with u again (or 4get about u completely)? to call it longing, is to call the ocean water...

the rain juz keeps pouring, and my heart juz keeps missing...