do u still come here? there is a big hole in my life, all the things u were a part of, u took away... i stood between u and urself... 4 me, u tried 2 be someone u could not be... 4 u, i was someone that could nvr be... normality, a need or a want? i lost u, 2 only fate and myself... i was a disease, ur decision was the cure... u have ur life back now, can i have mine? it's a good thing we only live once, the 1st word, the 1st baby tooth, the 1st A, the 1st love, the 1st job, the 1st million (may we all be so lucky), the 1st death... it's a good thing we only live once... there are 2 things i believe now, everything happens for a reason and you will always remember your first... i havent spoken 2 u since, i have no courage... i havent stopped thinking about u, i have no determination... i havent let u go, i have no future... i havent 4given myself, i have no intentions 2... sometimes people make decisions based on the right thing, other times people make decisions based on wat they want... ur life is back 2 normal... i finally understand why people lose their minds thinking about someone... i'm not as noble as i think i am, not even close... it is so easy 2 take a life, juz as it is 2 give 1... we fall in love, we stay, we go... if only lettin go was as easy as holding on... i've woken up, u've set the alarm clock... it went off, so did u... ur life is back 2 normal, but i thought i was ur life? "but u cant deny, everything between us was not normal"... normal it wasnt, so watever i'm dealt, is a blessing? its a good thing we only live once, people tell u life always gives u 2nd chances, and that there will always be chances 2 make up 4 ur mistakes... life izznt always that fair, this time u only got 1 chance... and its not such a bad thing after all... its a good thing we only live once... missing you...