well been doing nothin much really these couple of days... skul is pretty much hogging a good part of my day, and hw the rest of the time (note: hw from hols lol)... so went out with chris and darryl on mon (abit lag i know, but thought i'd mention it anyway)? went gymming then pool then movie... met yan jie 3 times (all of which he saw me b4 i saw him, at least almost lah) and nicholas chong oso... yeah so watched just my luck, damn nice show, classic love show 4 couples and wat not (funny eh? 3 guys going 2 watch this kinda show)... but it was really a good show, i'd watch it again juz 4 lindsay lohan (u get the point)... the story is pretty nice 2, and i have 2 admit, chris pine is really quite handsome (or as most girls would describe as cute)... dont worry i'm not turning gay (as darryl nvr quite failed 2 mention), lindsay lohan is still the main attraction... so anyway, great show, great company, and had a great time... its these kinda days that give u the strength 2 trudge through the heavy skul load... do it again soon guys? lol... nothing much during the 1st 2 days of skul, kinda sian yet happy kinda feeling... suddenly got this "muggin" surge from within me... good i guess, hope it lasts... lol... wanna (at least try 2) work hard this term and next, as everyone (teachers, GM and albar especially) has said, there are only 11 academic weeks til CTs, gotta grab every minute... yeah so hoping 2 do better this semester (maths and physics especially), we'll see lah... well, 2day is the cdiv's official start of their season... felt kinda excited oso, dunno why... when i see their faces, reminds me of our own cdiv season... juz felt like i was part of it again, reliving the memories... yeah, hope they do well (i'm sure of it, i believe that they can go far)... overachieve, play 2 the best of ur potential, maybe even more... go as far as ur abilities can bring u, and no matter wat, in ur hearts u will be champs... play with no regrets, all out fight, win together and have fun... haha... hope my words will inspire them (maybe not but nevertheless)... here's wishing the cdiv team all the best... lol... yeah, cool... suddenly feeling really sleepy (guess cuz i juz bathed and the bed seems really tempting), i should go do my work now... wanna do as much as possible 2night, sleeping early 2 (i hope, lol)... b4 i go, juz in case anyone is interested (or those who read my blog), gonna play soccer this fri... will be getting people, not playing in skul though (damn bloody cram without the field now), but playing somewhere really near skul... 2 options, hardcourt (further) or grass (nearer, quite near infact), more likely the latter... details from me yeah? interested juz hit me with an sms or something... we'll (darryl and myself) will be coming 2 u (2C '05 guys and all)... hopefully we can have some fun this fri... spamming soccer... ok lah, gotta go try and get some work done (by the looks of it, i think imma sleep)... until next time, peace out...

ok, so its another day... well, in a sense its another day, with combined skuls training... yeah, so went 4 combined skuls training this morning, ended up late? i was there at 9 o'clock flat, and they were there doing warm ups already... i was like wth? so anyway (nvr kena screwed), quite a slack training... had the technical director tracy york and the coach of the singapore mens team 2 come down and give us a sort of training clinic... so it was kinda slack... ended damn early oso, when we were done (with the technical director and the coach of the singapore team), we had a talk with our own u-15 coach (it was a mighty long 1), then i had a little shoot about (having not touched the ball close 2 3 weeks excluding yesterday), only then was it 11... so ended up watching a little of the on-going girls game in the courts right next 2 ours (had nothing much 2 do now after training anyway, didnt feel like going home, was way 2 early)... so watched the remaining of the game til it ended... so went off 2 the toilets 2 change up... here's the kick of 2day... as i was walking past the officials table of the girls game, noticed this chick there packing up lah... ok so i thought yeah she juz another 1 of the girls there lah... so i was walking past, and juz as i looked up (from the floor, i was apparently starring at the floor), the girl smiled at me... ok wait, stop right there, dun get me wrong, hear me out 1st... so i was like, wth man, this chick actually smiled at me (dun pop the champagne yet)... juz at that split moment, when i looked at her face carefully, saw that it was joelynn? right then i was stunned lah... 1st of all, wat the hell was she doing there man? i was thinking like WHAT? and she actually recognised me? at that spilt second i couldnt catch who she was... it took juz another split second 2 catch her face again b4 it hit me... damn, the only other time i actually had contact with her was the other time when we played bball at RJ? ya that was it (and of course bball tournament, but that doesnt count because there is no interaction)... and she recognised me!!! haha... still the shock of the day... yeah so i smiled back 2 lah, but my reaction abit lag (cuz i was caught off guard and i was shocked), so i think my smile was abit gay and creepy... ya so anyway, in the end realised that she was probably there cuz shes in the girls squad? dunno lah... this sort of thing must ask danny... ok moving on, after that took bus back 2 bishan there 2 eat yoshi (dunno why juz felt like eating yoshi)... had 2 wait damn long 4 the stupid bus, in the end damn hungry... ok so i was at yoshi, and i was ordering my food... then at the counter (the only open counter), there was this chick (this time seriously, she was really quite cho) behind the counter taking my order... wow, she was really cute lah (as in cute kinda cute, not the way girls would say it, more like... juz cute lah)... she was cho + cute... damn, i officially declare 2day as world cuteness day lah... she had these blue contacts on (damn if that colour was real), really caught MY eyes... lol... yeah, she had this high voice oso, totally fits the cuteness... this time i wasnt stunned, cuz i sorta saw that coming? yeah, she seems pretty sweet... ok so food was great (dun ask me why lol) and roamed aimlessly around j8 4 abit... went 2 see cds and blah... nothing much juz didnt wanna go home... lol... so took train back 2 woodlands and walked around cp... when i was 5 mins in2 the walk, i was like "crap man, wat am i doing here?" so ended up going home anyway... got home and watched this non-stop marathon of Pimp My Ride... woah, i swear that is the hottest show alive man... they pimp up these beat up rides, and turn them in2 some seriously hot cars... damn, somemore this is a back-2-back marathon, so u get 2 check out like all the cars... wow, and the host xzibit, i like that guy... lol... damn joker, but hes cool 2... west coast customs, they are the 1s dishin out the hot stuff man... wonder where they get all the money... yeah man... so watched that til i took a shower and ended up right here infront of the com... damn i'm feeling hungry (random)... 2night is the 1st of the round of 16... haha, this is where it all gets interesting, and where all the real action begins... hai, gotta do homework liao (as much as possible lah)... juz the thought of it makes me sian (who wont right?)... nvm, shall go out on mon... heck care man... lol... ok lah, will end here (4 now), seriously hungry lah... think i go eat something 1st... peace...

so i'm sitting here with ice wrapped around my left knee... abit of swelling below the knee cap, realised that it hurt quite abit after coming back from swimming (been swimming quite abit these couple of days)... somewhat of a bruise (no excuse 2 miss training 2morrow eh?)... totally irrelevant stuff... moving on, went gym this morning (at toa payoh) b4 training at SPANS (4got wat it stood 4, some civil servant thingy i guess)... went gym alone 2day cuz couldnt quite find anyone else 2 come along, so got there about 10 and gymmed til about 11:15 (sorrie 4 the boring details)? then decided 2 go SPANS earlier since i had nothing else 2 do (training at 12)... on my way there, as i was crossing a bridge, saw this place not 2 far from SPANS that looked like a caged up street soccer court (like those damn high cage walls surrounding the court)... so i decided 2 drop by 4 a quick look... true enuff, there was a street soccer court all caged up with really high walls... was in pretty good condition, looks like a nice place 4 a game or 2... sometimes u juz need 2 stop and smell the flowers (in this case looking at random architecture from an elevated platform)... i nvr noticed that place b4, taking the fact that i've been 2 SPANS dozens of times 4 trainings and competition... hai, but the timing could not be worse, skul's about 2 start in 3 days time, juz when possible activities pop up (like pool?)... felt kinda cheated, discover such a good place 2 play soccer oso cannot play... anyway, went 4 training after that (ran in2 az, danny, zf and yifei as i walked 2wards SPANS from the street soccer courts?)... i tell u, 3 weeks without any contact of a basketball watsoever and u juz totally lose that feeling, not 2 mention practically dying (well, maybe thats juz me but anyway)... wah, 3 weeks... and a so called "slack" training kills me... totally lost the dribbling and shooting feeling... for a moment i thought that i 4got how 2 even catch a ball... lol... but (thankfully), it came back after awhile, but i was still dying though... dunno how 2 go combined skuls training 2morrow... sian... so we did a couple of drills then scrimmage... well, juz realised that basketball (as much as i try 2 deny it) is still my thang... cant hide from it, sure as hell cant run from it, so might as well embrace it... oh, (somewhat) shocking news, coach will be taking over RJ bball next year... that means he will cover A div, B div and C div... that is totally mad!!! lol... i wont say 2 much here, maybe not now at least... but yeah, thats how its gonna go... so after training went 2 eat with the rest of the guys, realised how hungry i was when i saw all the food in the hawker centre (when was the last time i actually ate with them?)... from there went home and u'd probably get the rest of the story... hai, been thinking again 2day... dunno why oso... wont say that i got really affected, but i definitely wont say i'm on top of the world... got brought down a little lah... hai, so i shouldnt really be thinking about it right now... ok, movin on (that was really crap, wasting both ur time and mine), couple of songs ringing in my head now (besides delinquent habits, still on that one and only song), like gimme that by chris brown, promiscuous and maneater by nelly furtado, ridin' by chamillionaire and for you i will (confidence) by teddy geiger... wont say that they are exactly new (although a couple of them are), but i'm not exactly keeping up with the radio scene... wow, thats quite abit man... lol... oh and this other song, heard it on xifang's blog? dunno wat's the title of the song (chinese lah, even worse, cant blame me)... waiting maybe 4 her 2 come online and send me or something? perhaps anyone else who knows the song might juz be so kind as 2 send me the song on her behalf (i dun even know if she has the song... its a long shot, but 1 worth taking)? well i would probably go download a couple of the songs after this... and world cup!!! hoping 2 see france crash out of the world cup 2night (hearing chants of "EVIL")... lol... dunno why oso, but juz wanna see them lose (or maybe a draw, a loss is 2 hopeful) 2 togo... ok lah, think i'll end here... 2morrow got combined skuls training (think its the 3rd time i'm saying it), sian dun feel like going... maybe going out on monday is not such a wise decision after all... lol... ok, going 2 download songs already... peace...

i 4got the look on ur face... i 4got the feel of ur waist... i 4got the smell of ur hair... i 4got the taste of ur sweet, sweet kiss... i 4got ur smile... i 4got how it is 2 be loved by u...

i realised its good 2 be 15... sometimes we ask 4 things we dun have, like freedom and that bit more cash... and we often 4get wat we actually do have... yes, we're young, and with youth comes alot of things, like making mistakes, like trying new stuff, like learning the hard painful lessons in life, about life... u may think i'm nuts (i think the same way 2 sometimes), who wants 2 learn things the hard way, who wants 2 make mistakes... then again, who wants 2 grow up? life is about growing up, the catch is that we nvr stop growing up... sometimes u juz wish u could skip the long and tedious process that we would like 2 call "growing up", wish u were livin' large with the cash and everything else that follows closely behind "adulthood"... that was wat i used 2 think (and maybe once or twice every so often nowadays)... but then i realised that its the process that's more important... imagined if u missed out on graduating sec4 (big deal right?), imagine if u missed orientation in jc1 (bigger deal right?), imagine missing out on NS or maybe even uni... imagine missing out on life from now til ur old enuff 2 drink alcohol (legally) but not old enuff 2 say u've seen the world... think about all the friends ur about 2 make, or all the friends ur about 2 lose... ya being "grown up" is all fine and dandy, but growing up is juz as great... sometimes, ur only given 1 shot at life, when that happens, the best thing u could do is take it... yeah being 26 sounds great, u know the freedom and all, but i'm thankful i'm still 15, cuz i know that there are still mistakes 2 be made, lessons 2 be learnt and paths 2 be chosen... i'd probably have 2 make a decision i have 2 live with 4 the rest of my life (with or without regret), i'd probably learn about the cold and hard reality of the working world, i'd probably learn the meanings of responsibility, honour, pride and passion... but until then, i'm doing fine... yeah we complain about skul and homework and wat have u, but u dun see a 30 year old complaining about the days when skul was juz a day away... and we certainly cant see ourselves worrying about jobs, or managing household budgets, or even worrying about toilet paper... life is about growing up... yeah i'm 15, and i realised its good 2 be 15...

haha... that was a laugh, seriously... ok enuff about life lessons from a 15 year old... lol... so i finally got this new skin up, spent close 2 my whole afternoon doing it... thought it was quite nice lah... lol... so, i didnt quite manage 2 get up last night 2 watch holland vs argentina... and i'm thankful 2, ended in a goalless draw... i actually woke up at 2:40am without alarm clock (surprise surprise, cant remember why i woke up oso), but then i fell asleep again... so 2night is brazil vs japan, actually nothing much 2 watch oso... brazil would (hopefully) probably finish the group with maximum points, so i wont make any promises 2 watch that game 2night... lol... so last night i was watching van helsing (the 1 with kate beckinsale, woo), when i totally remembered this other hot chick, josie maran... damn, she played 1 of dracula's bride (sadly she was the one that died 1st), she was kick ass hot man... 1st noticed her in NFSMW (Need For Speed Most Wanted), shes the character mia townsend... and her hotness prevails even in virtual reality... lol... yeah so i checked her out and stuff (along with NFSMW of course), and it appears that she starred in van helsing... ok so that caught my attention, and of course the show itself last night brought it back 2 my attention... she was so fine, 2 bad she was the 1st 2 die... hai, but there was kate beckinsale (always a favourite), but in the end she died 2... absolutely random stuff... was thinking about going out this mon? anyone interested, juz hit me back (as in, black talk 4 reply me or get back 2 me, somewhere along that line)... maybe watch a movie or something? argh, b4 friggin skul reopens man, u feelin' me (another hopeless attempt 2 sound black)? ok nvm, gettin a wee bit outta my head... cant quite remember wat else i wanted 2 say already... so i'll juz check back in another time... josie maran man, a penny 4 ur (or my) thoughts... lol... peace out...

ok so 2day was juz another day, cept 4 this little incident by the pool... ok so anyway, 2day went gymming and pool with chris again (hmmm, becoming quite routine but i aint complainin)... pooled a little longer 2day, b4 we went 2 eat and then chris went off 4 his training... gym was pretty shiok, chris was dying again as usual (5 times in 4 days? come on, even superman cant recover from that, well maybe he can but u get the point)... yeah, so after that came home and went swimming (again)... so i went down 4 a little tan (catching as much sun as possible, rain these couple of days)... so after that swam awhile, then decided 2 play a little game of soccer with my sister lah (ok, so she was the keeper and i tried 2 beat her with a small rubber ball), in a small pool with about knee high water (so she can dive without crying very much)... ok so i was kicking about (bad ass winds man, kept curling the ball like nobody's business), then this dumbass "security guard" comes over and asks us 2 stop playing soccer lah... so i was like ok dude... then i went back 2 swimming lah... after like 2 mins, he comes back with this "chick" (note the word chick is in inverted commas), comes up 2 me and ask me 4 my apartment number and wat not... i was like wat the hell, but gave him anyway... then he rambled on about something which i wasnt really bothered 2 pay any attention 2... then the little bitch said, "sorrie, there's no world cup here..." i was like screw off man... then they really did! lol... so anyway, juz as they were leaving 2 little dudes came walking by, 1 of whom had a bloody nose (yes, it IS a bloody nose, not trying 2 infer that his nose was screwed up)... ok so they (apparently) cocked up his nose somehow while swimming and went off 2 the toilets 2 wash up... right then i was like, wat the hell man, if the security guards got that much free time on their hands which they obviously know nuts about using it, and can find some1 who was playing soccer HARMLESSLY at the pool to "book", but apparently could not give half a shit about a small dude who injured himself while swimming which resulted in a bloody nose, then i think there is something seriously screwed about the people my condo hires... yeah, i'm complaining because (i admit) i got caught out... but then again i do believe i have a point... hai, its juz me lah, i should have stood up right there and then, but apparently failed 2 (once again)... disappointing... its juz me... no surprise why i wont be able 2 accomplish anything big... at the rate i'm going at least... wah but seriously cant stand that biatch lah... mistake was mine, but sarcasm not quite so welcomed... hai, i feel i've let myself down when i didnt stand up 2 them now i look back at it... ok lah enuff about the sadness of my miserable life, moving on 2 brighter things... ok so at the pool (way b4 bitch and bitchier came along), there was this chick (this time its really a chick) that was swimming there lah... she wore this yellow somewhat top? and black bottoms... she was really quite something man... believe me, she aint jessica alba, but she's something... probably the 1st in and around my place i've really checked out (actually maybe not, but since i'm mentioning her in my post, title of lucky number 1 goes 2 her)... not really that many chicks around the pool (or my condo 4 that matter), quite sad if u really think of it... my guess is she's 20 something? well yeah maybe thats a little 2 old, but (believe me) anything could happen... lol... ok so there's this other 1, i always see her when i go down 2 the pool, she would come with her father? and sister... she is really hot... but here's the catch, shes eurasian... well more of a mix between eurasian and indian? shes really quite hot though... cant be more than 20 (really tough, cuz she looks pretty mature)? like i said lah, tough... ok enuff about that... ya so that was pretty much my day up til now of course... rather routine, but really not complaining man... quite cool actually... ok so 2night there's world cup (again, of course man wat am i talking about), netherlands vs argentina!!! 3 am, i wanna watch that man... lol... hopefully i can watch it lah, would definitely be a game worth watching... argentina!!! champion candidates... so i'll be checking that out... 4 now, i'll have 2 check out, mum calling 4 dinner already... probably be back later, so til then... peace...

ok so i'm bloggin again (achievement? not quite yet)... well, did nothing much cept play ps2 2day at my grandparents place (been doing that quite abit this hols, long story about why i cant play at my own house so i'll juz skip that)... so 1st off, i'm totally hooked on2 this new (or old) band called Delinquent Habits... anyone heard the song on the nike joga bonito video, c. ronaldo vs zlatan (that video rocks btw)? yes the song thats playing in the background while they face off with out of this world tricks and skills that totally kick serious ass... ya, so i (finally) found that song through random surfing of the web... downloaded it and now, welcome 2 the era of delinquent habits... they sound spanish-ish, latin-ish, samba-ish (if that is even a language) and what u would probably hear in that part of the world... they are somewhat rap-ish 2 (fort minor style)... the song is called Return Of The Tres btw... ok, so i've only heard 1 of their songs, but i think i'm falling in love with them already... they're seriously HOT, in a cool sorta way (u know wat i mean)... yeah, so (i think) they're pretty much like fort minor, u know a couple of raps here and a few hip hop beats there... wow, the beat on Return Of The Tres is seriously messed up (as in really really good), its another one of those songs that i juz cant get outta my head... their last album was in 2000, so i dun think they are all that new (or still around 4 that matter), but no harm checking them out... ok so enuff about delinquent habits... later there's world cup again, germany vs ecuador and poland vs costa rica? yeah will be watching the germany game, hoping 2 see ecuador kick germany's ass (sorrie german fans, lol)... both games at 10 i think... got pretty much nothing 2 do from now til then (cept maybe work, but that is if i wanna do it)... anyway, watched the last bit of grey's anatomy last night... realised it was a pretty nice show... another hospital (groans) + drama (more groans) show... but from wat i saw it was really nice... the only thing was that it was like cut up and jumpy in sequence, suspect it's like a summary of the episodes up til now? dunno lah but i kinda liked the jumpy cut up sequence effect, really interesting way of telling the story... yeah so anyway, thought it was quite nice so imma try 2 catch it next week (11? right b4 scrubs which is at 12)... ok, back 2 music 4 abit, so on the joga bonito videos, this 1 might be tough, anyone remember the song playing in the background of the brazilian team video (the 1 where the brazilian team start juggling the ball in the locker room)? i found the song kinda funky 2, and i heard it on the radio (class 95)... so i downloaded it, turns out it was a collaboration between black eyed peas and sergio mendez called Mais Que Nada... not bad... fergie sounds damn hot when she sings the spanish part (not quite sure of the language but sounds like it)... seriously hot... yeah, so 2 joga bonito video songs, both sound really good... wanna find a new blogskin... lazy 2 find, hopefully b4 skul reopens ba... ok i'll end off 4 now with Delinquent Habits...

Delinquent Habits

1996 album cover

2000 album cover

ok so maybe i'm back 2 bloggin (well, the last time i said that it didnt actually happen but we'll see)... a good way of recording my day's events and all that bullshit... maybe specially 4 another reason but that i have no way of knowing myself (nvm)... so its the last week of the hols (people who actually notice, i keep saying its the last week of skul, but anyway), this is (4 most people) the "best" part of the hols, when u discover that u actually HAD homework 2 do... so everyone is chionging as usual... this hols (4 me) was far from uneventful, and juz as time has it, skul starts again next week (on a tues 4 moi of course)... ok enuff about the hols (4 now), got quite a bit 2 talk about, but maybe not everything in this post... ok so 2day went gymming with chris in the morning at toa payoh, woke up damn early and reached there 1 hr b4 scheduled meeting time (got there at 9, supposed 2 meet at 10)... sat outside macs there and stoned, watching the world go by (literally)... and i realised i cant quite live without music (among many other things yes, but music a MUST)... i realised i havent been listening 2 the radio in god knows how many months, and ever since my com got wiped clean of its memory (along with all my songs), i lost touch with the music world and abandoned my mp3 player... hai, once again it takes the radio 2 revive my music spirit? u nvr treasure something until its gone, and the loss of all my songs is a testament 2 that statement... so yeah, heard a couple of nice (and old) songs, class 95's morning show is seriously the best... lol... so after that went gym (redundant, but anyway), and hardcore quite abit? did abit of everything but kept the main stuff intact... so after that we went 2 SAFRA (which was so conveniently right next 2 the gym) and played pool... hell man, when was the last time i played pool!!! (actually it was on sat but u get the picture) ever since cuppage got raided, pretty much dried up the spots 4 pool... and chris juz had 2 come by and intro me 2 this place where we could play again... woah man... that is some quantum shit right there man (quote from scary movie 3)!!! so we played 4 like 2 hrs then went 2 eat... hai, really missed the good ol' days... it was a really cool way 2 spend a morning + a little of the afternoon... so came back and went swimming 4 abit... nothing much at the pool (the other pool this time), juz went down 2 chill out... damn, got 2 gym AND relax... not bad at all... so i was thinking maybe after this post i go rest awhile b4 i start some work later 2night (i might, i really might)... should really force myself 2 get some work done already... i'm juz finding ways 2 take my mind off missing you... i really dunno how i can find someone better than u (at least right now), but maybe i juz need 2 really chill out right now... so i'm juz burning my time away (hopefully 2 better use), wishing 4 the end of year hols 2 arrive juz as soon as this hols is about 2 end... really gotta plan this dec hols, maybe get the guys and go 4 a chalet (ambitious?) or maybe juz hang out in orchard or something... but then again, u gotta suffer b4 u bear the fruits (thats more or less how it goes right?)... juz so much running through my head, juz not giving myself enuff time and space 2 think about it... think i'll end off here, may be back later if i got stuff else 2 say... juz a random thought, clubbing sounds nice (all of a sudden yeah?) lol... nvm that, check back in again (soon i hope), peace...

do u still come here? there is a big hole in my life, all the things u were a part of, u took away... i stood between u and urself... 4 me, u tried 2 be someone u could not be... 4 u, i was someone that could nvr be... normality, a need or a want? i lost u, 2 only fate and myself... i was a disease, ur decision was the cure... u have ur life back now, can i have mine? it's a good thing we only live once, the 1st word, the 1st baby tooth, the 1st A, the 1st love, the 1st job, the 1st million (may we all be so lucky), the 1st death... it's a good thing we only live once... there are 2 things i believe now, everything happens for a reason and you will always remember your first... i havent spoken 2 u since, i have no courage... i havent stopped thinking about u, i have no determination... i havent let u go, i have no future... i havent 4given myself, i have no intentions 2... sometimes people make decisions based on the right thing, other times people make decisions based on wat they want... ur life is back 2 normal... i finally understand why people lose their minds thinking about someone... i'm not as noble as i think i am, not even close... it is so easy 2 take a life, juz as it is 2 give 1... we fall in love, we stay, we go... if only lettin go was as easy as holding on... i've woken up, u've set the alarm clock... it went off, so did u... ur life is back 2 normal, but i thought i was ur life? "but u cant deny, everything between us was not normal"... normal it wasnt, so watever i'm dealt, is a blessing? its a good thing we only live once, people tell u life always gives u 2nd chances, and that there will always be chances 2 make up 4 ur mistakes... life izznt always that fair, this time u only got 1 chance... and its not such a bad thing after all... its a good thing we only live once... missing you...

Missing you isn't what hurts, its knowing I once had you that kills me.