well havent been blogging in a helluva long time... simply busy or juz damn lazy 2 update here... its well into the march hols(coming 2 the end if u think of it), n lotsa work left 2 be done... fell sick yesterday, aint gettin any better... my whole body is like dying, feeling damn lethargic, nose is running til nowhere, bad throat n wat have u... fever feels like its coming on and off... thats my past few days, really not helping my hols... 2day is lim zhen and kenneth's bday? so here's wishing them happy birthday(again)... hai, my birthday is so far off lah... but when that time comes, many changes are gonna take place... been wondering lately, what is perfection? u know many will say that they dun believe in perfection, or its heaven, or its when u score full marks 4 a maths test, or its when u find that something in ur life that makes u complete... well, i've been thinking about that... i really wonder at times, whether its is possible 2 have something perfect in our lives... its like in the world now, everything is so fast-paced and hectic, people juz dun appreciate things anymore... i wont deny that, cuz i havent been appreciative of alot of things myself... but lately, its like i see differently, i hear differently, i feel differently... and i dunno, maybe its cuz of the many things thats happened, that i finally woke up... its like i've been telling u about how perfect u are n everything, n now, i really see it... and i ask myself, is this my "perfection"? sometimes i juz feel that u can get so much better at times, and yet u settle 4 someone like me? and i'm not being negative or wat(i'm so out of that stage), but its like i feel that i'm lettin u down in a sense... but then again, i'm really setting my expectations of myself really high, especially when it comes 2 living up 2 ur perfection... and the more i get 2 know about u, its like all the little things, that makes ur perfection stand out even more... its like i cant find any fault in u at all? its scary at times... i'm pretty sure i'm not the only 1 that finds u this way, and u can be really happy anywhere else... sometimes i really wonder if ur truly happy with me... (once again, not being negative) u can probably get anything u want out there juz simply based on ur perfection... thats how i feel... i dun like the feeling when i'm not in control of wat happens around me(sounds like final destination 3? hell yeah), thats where fate comes in... but i still very much believe in everything between us? i dunno, i'm thinking 2 much again... my head is a little woozy, bet everything i've written is messed up and confusing... really not thinking straight but i had 2 get that out of my system somehow... been listening 2 this damn old backstreet boys song(yes, y'all heard me right its BSB), all i have to give... couldnt be more appropriate i feel... ok my head is starting 2 hurt again, i think i'd better lie down... come back here again with clearer thoughts, after i get this stupid flu bug outta my system... 4 all those who share their birthday 2day with my 2 other friends, heres wishing u all a happy birthday... and remember, u're ONE YEAR OLDER(no complete relevance watsoever, seriously i'm gettin really woozy)!!! peace...