haha, so long nvr blog, now got so many things 2 blog... gonna blog quite abit here, so bear with me... ok 1st things 1st, i am officially stuffed! wat the hell man, i ate like 3 meals in the space of 5 hours... lunch, ate fried rice AND chicken rice, with veggies n wat have u, then around 3 plus like that, ate chicken wings n drumlets lah(by then i'm already stuffed so u know wat comes next), at like 5 like that, went out 2 eat hokkien mee? by that time, i was like juz eat lah, already no feeling, not eating 4 taste liao, juz stuffing... well if i said i lost weight, now i think i gained it back with surplus man(muscleman would be proud? lol)...

ok, thats 4 stuffing myself... on2 combined skuls... well, havent been feeling all that well lately, n juz decided 2 go 4 this 1 2day since feeling abit better... so well, havent been combined skuls training 4 bout 4-5 weeks? havent seen most of the guys as well... so did training n blah, dead beat, i am out of shape... did alot of running man... ok so anyway, about the combined skuls, well the coach talked about defence n everything, n he said the 1st team goal would be 2 defeat the cat high malaysians... wow, when i heard that, i was like "hell yeah man!!!"... wah, since like dunno when, i've juz been hating the cat highs 4 gettin the stupid malaysians 2 play 4 them n "kope" the bloody bdiv gold... i'm like damn pissed whenever it comes 2 this lah... i mean if u win with singaporeans(like serangoon gardens, quite frankly i dun like them juz as much, but at least they use singaporeans? its friggin singapore), then not so bad lah, go malaysia n kope players like this juz 2 win? wah cant stand it, monopolizing the basketball arena... its juz like chelsea lah(dun get me started on chelsea), wth... so its like, when he talked about beating cat high i was like, "wow man, this is it" kinda feeling... suddenly damn motivated lah... its like, juz want 2 get in2 the team of 12 so badly? this is juz the thing i need... get 2 whoop some malaysian ass in the process(i'm gonna get sued?)... i dunno why i juz get this feeling with the combined skuls squad, not saying that our own team is bad or worse off or something, but its juz that u know, i juz found life again in bball with the combined skuls... the combined skuls players not say that close 2 me compared with my own teammates, n there is no guarantee that i will get a place in the team... n maybe thats the main driving force n enthu-ness, n its something that i wanna bring over into our own skul team man... lol... whoop those cat high malaysians ass man... give them a taste of their own medicine, choke them on defence, burn their ass on offence man(nvr hear me talk about bball until like this on my blog, only get this much enthu-ness from probably danny, alot of passion)... wah hands seriously itchy liao, wanna go whack something... lol...

ok moving on, b4 i really go whack something(hopefully not something made in malaysia or wat have u)... well, imma talk about my dad... see, i realised that i'm alot like my dad(not including the fact that he has muscles that look like they can do some serious damage 2 ur head, seriously freaks me out sometimes), n there's juz this similarity that scares me... well, i realised that both of us have alot of emotions actually(yes my dad does have emotions, so do most dads, juz in case ur wondering), n there's nothing wrong with emotions, but there's something wrong if u dun express it properly... there's a weakness i see, in both of us... i realised that actually my dad does care alot(dun say about me lah, but cares alot on the whole), n he does get worried n he will get happy when i do well or something... n of course he gets pissed n everything at me oso lah(thats when hes like gonna knock my brains out or something man, n it gets really messy), n i guess more often than not, he doesnt really know how 2 express his emotions lah... thats wat i'm afraid is happening 2 me... i mean, yes lah i do try 2 talk more, but there are still like certain "restricted zones" that i still leave a large part 2 myself... n i juz really dun wanna grow up "keeping quiet" so 2 speak... not saying my dad has a horrible personality or wat, but there are different times 4 different people 2 play different roles... its like 2day lah, i mean i can tell when he actually has emotions oso by simple things, like the show top gun, still remember its his like all time favourite show(back in the days of laser disc, aka LD), last time he would watch it the whole day lah(remember tom cruise, when he was younger, look exactly the same now after dunno how many years), then all the oldies oso come from there... ya, so they were showing it on star movies juz now, can tell he still loves the show lah, n its all these little things... i mean i think my dad is a great guy(not saying it 4 the sake of saying it), cept 4 the times he flips me upside down, but seriously, hes a really nice guy lah i think, juz doesnt know how 2 express his emotions well... n i dun wanna grow up like that, juz gotta learn how 2 express myself better(not juz talking cock, but really EXPRESSING myself) ok, i still have so much 2 say... i'll come back a little later 4 part 2... until then, peace...