well valentines day is around the corner n close 2 everyone is feeling it(sadly not me)... n well still havent been keeping 2 my promise of blogging consistently? juz started 2 have that feeling back again, so decided 2 blog... everyone is so hyped about valentines, but me, not so... juz cant feel it coming(am i supposed 2?)... its juz like last year when i had that same feeling... its like a whole new perspective juz opened up... when ur standing there watching the world go by, she's juz another stranger on the street... she walks pass u n u notice her, but u know she'll be lost in the crowd again... u know, 1st impressions are always the most primal of all, when the only thing that catches u is the looks, thats when the feelings are the strongest as well... but thats oso when the attraction is the weakest... the feelings are strong, true no doubt, but will it last? well that happens everyday when u see a cho bu walking pass u... u notice her and the words "damn she's hot" would probably be running through ur mind right then, but u probably wouldnt remember her after a week... well i lost this particular stranger in the crowd, knowing that this is as close as i'll ever be, but as fate has it, she wont be gone 4 long... its like, yes her looks catches u(come on, u'd have 2 be blind 2 miss her), but there's always that something there that pushes u on 2 keep wanting 2 find out more... i really dunno where this is headed, where these feelings lie... its like when u see her, maybe juz along the streets, juz walking by, ur eyes juz cant help but follow her every move, her every step... u know there's gotta be more than juz that on the outside... but when she's outta ur line of sight(or when u get slapped with a really huge fish), u wake up from that that trance, n u know that, quite frankly, thats as far as ur gonna go... yeah, maybe right now the feelings are as good as looking at a picture, when u know u cant reach the real thing... n maybe the feelings are juz pure lust, but then again, are these feelings tryna tell u something? yeah, when u think about it, u wouldnt be the only 1 starring at her, u wouldnt be the only 1 noticing her... n thats where u know the chances are even slimmer... wat makes u think ur the only 1? wat makes u think ur HER only 1? wat makes u think ur even half that close? well, i dunno... i dunno anything anymore... if these are only raw emotions, then the answer would be quite clear... but wat if these emotions hold more? would i be a fool 2 forego them? or a fool 2 follow them? well maybe its valentines that playing a prank on my heart n emotions, but with the thought of valentines, it burns all the more... should it be a good or bad thing? we shall see...