well its finally the end of the week... a long a tiring week i must add... well this week had some serious cct business n hardcore muggin 2 go along... had maths, chinese n geog this week... on the afterMATH (no pun intended) of my 2 screwed TA (topical assessment), wasnt feeling all that confident about maths going in2 the cct... the teacher (will not mention who) did not at all help the cause... n well, even after some serious hardcore practice, stilll screwed maths cct... thats that 4 maths... on2 chinese, well didnt really mug hardcore 4 it n well expected 2 screw up (way 2 darn negative but cant help it, facts)... can blame it on all sorts of reasons, season, new chinese tuition teacher n wat have u... but no point blaming anyone but me... juz gotta work harder next time... n last but not least geog (2day), the last of ccts 4 this week... best of the 3, felt it was ok, managed 2 finish the paper? although a bit rush but it was ok lah... hope i get something good out of it lah... rushed in the ss brochure along the course of this week as well (actually it was juz yesterday that i was rushing but anyway)... a pretty stressed week... had 2 lose a somewhat crucial bball game 2 add on 2 the stress man... somehow i blame myself once again (not surprised i would)... but its over n i gotta let it go... i really dunno lah, juz felt like giving up more than once this week... could literally juz feel the pressure building up, with muggin n ccts n season... juz felt i was losing it lah... juz the emotional n physical tiredness... well 2day after geog cct, went down 2 j8 n met u there... well i dunno, maybe cuz of everything this week, i juz realised how good u looked in ur skul uniform... it juz struck me there n then... ya well, we talked, something we didnt get 2 do much of over the week... well it was nice 2 have someone 2 share ur troubles with... talk until i was late 4 training lah... i really felt like i was losing it lah... everything seem 2 juz hit so hard this week (like i said this afternoon, so ya bear with me), i juz feel so useless? i mean everyone else is going through the same thing n i dun see them complaining or losing it? am i that weak mentally? juz feel that i shouldnt be complaining but i cant help feeling that way... felt so lost n useless lah... i know ur busy with ur school work as well, that makes me appreciate wat u've done 4 me even more... hai, dunno wat i'll do without u... felt a whole lot better after ranting on about my troubles... thanks ms softee ;) lol... so there goes another week, n here comes the weekend again... i have that gut feeling that this weekend will fly right pass me... got eng ERP, chin compo, n muggin 4 chem n physics ccts next week, on top of which, two do-or-die games on mon n tues... feeling the pressure again? not yet, but i will... hai, really feel like taking a break right now, but i know if i let the flow drop, i wont be able 2 pick it up again... took enuff failures 2 pick up the slack, cant lose it now... well ur gonna be busy next week 2 as i hear from u, well all the best ya... will be here 4 u... now i think back on the week, it passed pretty quickly, but not without me losing something (my sanity 2 say the least) and finding something in return... well u got ur ups n downs as we all like 2 say, wat keeps u going are the ups, wat keeps u from going are the downs... so well, lifes like that... gotta face it, whether we like it or not... juz gotta loosen up right now, all the stress got my brain all twisted n tensed up, any more of this crap and we're gonna have a hard time cleaning up my brain matter from the floor... hai, think i've said enuff lah... juz wanna listen 2 some soothing music n wind down the week... check back in some other time... peace...