well 1st of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! well havent been bloggin in a damn long time... couldnt keep 2 my word on keeping this thing up... well decided 2 add something here lah... bet no1 reads this piece of crap oso... lol... anyway, 2morrow is chinese new year, n everyone is damn busy lah... wth, everyone is like rushing 4 last minute stuff, preparing this n that... couldnt exactly remember if it was like this last year, but it really seems that everyone is so much more busy this year(maybe cuz i couldnt be bothered last year, lol) well so 2morrow is gonna be another busy day(or maybe not)... going 2 my grandparents place, gonna see my cousins again... its gonna be some fun i hope... well its nice seeing them again(after a week, lol), not 2 mention the hong baos(ok sounding greedy, save it b4 i get some lecture on the true meaning of chinese new year lol)... but quite frankly i'm not that interested in the hong bao money(oh please...), but i mean its nice 2 see everyone again after close 2 a year without seeing each other at all... i mean i dun get 2 see my uncle n aunt 4 a year, cuz everyone is so busy n all(me oso)... so well yeah, good fun... not going back malaysia this year(as u can see, otherwise i wont be blogging here)... well i have 2 say malaysia is definitely some fun... can still remember the other time went back 4 CNY n played with some serious kick-ass firecrackers(one of those big-ass 1s hit a car, unforgettable)... helluva lotta people back in malaysia(mum's side loads of siblings), gambling n stuff... really cant 4get that 2 years ago, CNY back in malaysia... really nice having everyone back home... get 2 see relatives i've nvr seen in my life(seriously, NVR)... yeah well stuck in singapore this year... aint complaining though, hopefully going out with(hip n happening) cousins 2morrow... bring extra cash? hmmmmm, waiting 2 find out 4 wat(haha, if ya know wat i mean)... but wonder wat'll be open lah, juz go wit the flow i guess... everything being said, it is still chinese new year... somehow this year feels a little different, a sense of loss somewhere... i dunno why but whenever i'm alone in my room lying in my bed, things juz flood my mind... well positivity aint the thing, but i'm trying 2 keep myself up... dunno why the thoughts juz hit so hard during this period of time(particularly, lol)... been in alot of mood swings lately, dips low n hits high... pms? hahaha... dunno lah, ya lor... havent been blogging consistently n thus maybe dunno how 2 say certain things... lol... well its the holidays(with hw dammit, lol), gotta be positive n happy(been saying this alot more often 2 myself lately)... its the start 2 a new year(technically), new beginnings n stuff... gotta rest up this short break(quite hard but have 2), then skul hits full swing once again(crowd cursing at me 4 talking about skul on the eve of chinese new year, lol)... wish i could tell u some things right now, but i guess its better not 2 say anything now... 1st feb... alright, shall stop here lah, can sense i'm losing myself(as always), so once again, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! may you all be blessed with luck n prosperity(i sound like a friggin chinese new year ad, hahahaha)... enjoy ur hols, n dun 4get about us poor people... peace...