well, in a rather good mood yesterday... got alot of things off my chest by dumping everything in2 the blog... but once again, my com screwed me n the post was lost 4ever... i dunno why even then i wasnt pissed or anything, juz had that feeling inside... its like even though i would have really wanted u 2 read the post, but now that its gone, i juz feel so much better that at least i told it 2 "someone"... i juz felt nothing could go wrong... even when last night charlton pulled level, i had this belief that man u will come back... nothing could bring down my day... my thoughts were so much clearer... maybe things were meant 2 be this way... maybe i'm not supposed 2 lose u, yet at the same time i cant be with u? i dun think i'm making very much sense but right now, thats how it is... i m as much puzzled, so we'll see lah... anyway, last night watched the latest installment of harry potter... it was a great show lah, but i like spent 1 post on all the ladies of the show, now i juz dun feel like repeating it... nice show, lets juz leave it at that... so i wanna watch just like heaven... gay? maybe, but seems like a nice show... the only thing i need right now is the right company... talking about movies, 2night got the girl next door... i think i mentioned this show b4 in a couple of post back, so shall be lazy n not elaborate again... this show is definately worth watching, lol... hopefully no one will kope the tv from me n i can watch in peace... so thats 4 2night, b4 that i have 2 pack 4 the malaysian trip... n i must admit, i wasnt really looking 4ward 2 it b4... i could see how it would go... a few good men will be the center of attention, everyone has a great time... sounds like alot of fun? not 2 me... but now, after last night(i dunno wth happened, something juz knocked crap in2 me), i'm juz willing 2 give it a shot lah... at least i'm roomming with zf, i think thats good? i'll juz have 2 shut out all that other crap... i really have 2 ignore everyone else... cuz i know all 2 surely, people will go there 2 have "fun"... i really dun wanna be a part of their "fun"... people will be there 2 impress, juz dun impress in my face or i'll make sure i express how i feel... i dun care if u're damn pro or zai or watever... juz keep it out of my face... i dunno how that was supposed 2 achieve anything... but thats wat i think lah, still dun think i'll enjoy myself... so i'll have 2 pack later, which totally sux... well, i juz have 1 question on my mind right now, do i mean anything 2 you? i guess if i can find that answer, my problems would be solved... maybe u know who u are, maybe u dun... so watever lah... i think the answer will come... i juz hope it comes b4 i bury myself 2 deep... enuff said lah... listening 2 music... waiting 2 play my fifa 04/06... waiting 4 an answer...