so ends another week... n its about 2 begins all over again... 2day nothing much, geog was screwed... had 2 sing a song, i dun mind singing but of all songs we could sing we had 2 sing a good charlotte song... screwed up big time... pe was dumb, my hip area was damn painful, dunno why... would rather finish the stupid test... now have 2 do next week... chinese was basically another waste of time... have a feeling i m gonna fail chinese... anyway, as it turns out, no interclass... cuz of some unforseen circumstances... it rained anyway(quite heavily)... oh ya, didnt stay back til 6 2day... the phone ringing thing, dun think anyone owned up, ms tsang was probably 2 friggin pissed 2 bother... i would be oso lah... heck lah... so after skul, waited the rain out n played a little soccer(my hip wasnt pain liao?)... sian... so wake me up when september ends... i think its high time i do something... september is ending, as good as sleeping through the whole month... nothing constructive done... 2 weeks? 3 weeks til its over? final stretch? hai... juz friggin get this over n done wit... then i can start worrying bout other things... i gotta wake up...

i m beginning 2 get sick n tired of my life... really wonder how much i m gonna achieve if i keep going like this... i dunno how i m gonna pull myself through the next 4 years? n even longer... i need some sort of motivation in my life... its like when u wake up in the morning, u dun feel like gettin out of bed, ur breakfast is tasteless, the train ride 2 skul is another friggin waste of time, skul itself is a pathetic bore, the train ride home is a the 2nd time in that day u wish u had a life, home is juz a memory, b4 u sleep, u tell urself 2morrow is going 2 be a better day, but inside u know it will nvr come... i need some motivation, at least 4 the next 4 years... basketball is not working 4 me anymore, quite frankly i m tired of basketball... i m 2 tired 2 find anything within me... how m i 2 live the rest of my life? i cant use u as an excuse no more because it simply wont work 4 me, i finally got some sense in2 my thick skull... i feel nothing when i talk 2 u, i shed no tears when i see u sad, i show no emotion when i look at u... because its over... it happened 1 too many times, i truly cared 4 that person 4 the last time when i gave up... when i gave up the only thing that kept me going... when i gave up the only thing that gave me a reason... when i gave up on u... where can i look 2 now, cuz i know u dun care anymore... u told me so... does life bring about new hope, or stop completely? friends are only there 4 so long... can they tell u that we would be best friends 4ever n keep 2 their word... how long does a friendship truly last? is there such a thing as 4ever? are ur friends all part of a play? n is anything that happens on the stage of life real? can u put ur last dime on ur best friend sticking through with u no matter wat, til the end, watever it takes? because i know i cant... i would be lying 2 myself if i said i could... so is there true friendship out there? is there a friendship that would last 4ever? no man is an island... but would u rather be an island, than 2 have unclear waters around u, than having 2 live with the lies of a friend, than having ur heartbroken by someone u care... because i know i would... i have a sad life, i juz needed 2 get it out... life goes on, but 4 how long? can i ever live a normal life again? i need 2 pull through, no matter wat it takes... the only reason 4 survival muz come from within, because the only person i know that will be there with me til the end is myself... i gave up, when i looked in2 ur eyes... i know that was the last time, i cared...