finally the end of a long week of skul... really tired these few days... dunno why... the only thing on my mind right now is the cts... kinda freaking myself out... how much time do i have left? wat, slightly more than 2 weeks? i m gonna be so fried 4 this ct unless i do something about it now... been slackin my brains out during lesson these few days lah... nvr pay any attention at all... now i damn scared eng n chin, cuz cover alot that i nvr listen, somemore they are my weakest subjects... so i m screwed big time... now everything 4 the year starts to count... all the little test n quiz, project tasks, assignment... starting 2 haunt me now... those are 2 late 4 regrets... but the future is still out there(i seriously hope so)... seriously gotta stop slacking, i keep telling myself that, but in the end still slack... on 1 hand i wanna do well 4 the cts, on the other i keep slacking... i guess it all boils down 2 determination n self discipline... i muz start now otherwise it will be 2 late... i think i m worrying 2 much about it, i should really start doing something about it already... juz wanna settle it with no regrets... finally got that off my chest... anyway enuff about the ct 4 the time being... can u believe it, the skul year is almost up... n i seemed almost like it was only yesterday when i 1st stepped in2 ri... man, so many things have happened over this 1+ year wit 2C... both good n bad... i wonder wat imma gonna do when i step in2 a different class next year... when i'll be thinking of the time we played kampong in class, played cards... paper balls, gettin screwed by chai yaw n wincy... man, its become so much a part of my life now it would juz seem weird if it didnt happen anymore... all the laughter, the noise in class... cant imagine sitting in a pin-drop slience class next year... no more jokes, no more weird people, no more hysterical laughter, no more teasing, no more crap from 2C... no more 2C... seriously man... i mean being wit the same people 4 almost 2 years n suddenly u are dealt a new hand, n the old faces are only faded lines... kinda sad lah... even scolding from wincy or chai yaw izznt really that bad now u think of it... cuz u dunno when u'll be getting the last 1... with all of this laid out b4 me... maybe its time 2 really appreciate 2C 4 a class it truly is, cuz i may nvr be in another 1 quite like this... its damn sad lah, n its not even the end of the year lah... hai, i think its the sad songs i've been listening 2 lah... michael learns to rock, 25 minutes... 1 heck of a song man... i think i've said this b4, but no harm saying it again... old love songs are the best... it really captures the emotions n plays it out in2 ur heart... at least it does 4 me lah... i guess all these songs really set my mood lah... thats why half the time i m talking about love n the love that could nvr be n wat sort... so there i think u have the reason 4 my crappy love posts... wats a letter without 1 2 read it? no point writing all the love crap if the person doesnt know how i truly feel inside, so 4get about it... move on wit life... there are so many other things i should spend my care on, not something that would only take n not give... i'm listening 2 25 minutes, n thinking of my friends... although i cant see any relevance between the song n my friends... but i know time is running out... gotta start doing something wit my life... lets hope i'm not "25 minutes too late..."